I steal stuff from the dining halls... silverware, food, dishware.. becase if I am going to pay almost $10 a meal for crap I won't eat, you better damn well believe I am going to get my money's worth.

i love everything about carolina- it was my first choice... but when i visit my boyfriend at his ivy league school i cannot help but feel inferior and ashamed... i know his friends look down on me.

I wish you wasn't so freaking attracted to you. I know it isn't going anywhere but I can't get you off my mind.

i can't stop thinking about sex in church

I'm so ready to graduate, because I don't know how many more hopeful Saturday afternoons and disappointed Sunday mornings I can take.

had a vivid sex dream about you. was drunk when i had it. in real life and in the dream. you seduced me and i let it happen. it was amazing.


please don't ever let this happen. would not be healthy for our respective significant others.

Comment here to submit a secret 4/13/08

At least once a week, I get the urge to run away into the woods at night and start a new life.

um...I hope he knows I'm only attracted to him physically, and I don't really want to like him. Because that's just awkward. He does have a gorgeous smile, though.

I just can't seem to believe that you like me for what I am now. I feel fat and ugly. Even though you seem happy to tell everyone that I'm your girlfriend, I just don't believe it. I promise you I'll be perfect. I want to be perfect for you.

all they can talk about is how much we're going to miss each other, but I'm pretty sure I won't speak to my roommates again after graduation.

I prefer to be on top, not only because it feels better, but because his stomach doesn't stick out as much. I want to tell him to start working out and caring more about his body, but I don't want to hurt his feelings or make it seem that I'm being shallow. But honestly, it's going to ruin our sex life if he doesn't start...

I never understood the expression "my heart dropped into my stomach" until i saw you tonight on franklin street...

i can't STAND my roommate anymore. the pigsty that is our room, people refusing to clean anything and take trash out, it's disgusting. not to mention the friends that are ALWAYS here. but we somehow still do that sweet, 'pretend-to-like-each-other' thing.

i'm not sure i can make it last these last few weeks!

think I pretty much failed my first semester, but I don't have the nerve to tell my parents the truth. And every time I have to ask them for money for food, I feel even more guilty because I don't think I earned anything from them. What hurts most is knowing I failed myself, because in my mind, failure is never an option, punishable by death (unless you are a coward, like me, then it's just excessive brooding...)

I'm terrified that I'll turn out like my mother. She is an amazing woman, but she is trapped. And I never want to be trapped. Ever.

i'm annoyingly conscientious in public about recycling and turning off dripping taps to make up for the fact that i use obscene amounts of toilet paper and take hour-long showers in private

Comment here to submit a secret 4/12/08

Sometimes I feel as if no one really cares. As if I'm not attractive enough, good enough, smart enough, anything. I feel like if I looked better, I could feel more complete.

I know I'm not ugly, but I have huge self-esteem problems that I just can't get over.

Isn't that sad?

Even though I've been driving for over 5 years, changing lanes still terrifies me.

i only think about you when i'm not doing anything else. with the others, thoughts of them would overwhelm me completely and constantly.

i still think i like you though... maybe it's a quiet kind of attraction. or maybe you're just an easy fix for my boredom?

I do not know if I truly like you as much as I think that I do, or if I just reach out whenever I think you're drifting away. I don't like to lose. I've been playing this game with people's hearts for far too long.

I don't look like one of 'those girls' but sometimes I am. I like it.

I dont know if i trust my boyfriend

sometimes my boyfriend makes me feel stupid, ignorant, worthless, and whoreish.

he has no idea that he does it and would be devastated if i told him, but i feel so inadequate.

I'm glad I didn't kiss you last night.



(though a tiny little part of me wishes I had)

kind of wish you would ask me if that secret is mine, so I can finally be completely honest with you and stop trying to "protect" you. I know you read this.

It makes me so sad that she's so unhappy and I could make her so happy if only I had the nerve to ask her.

Comment here to submit a secret 4/11/08

Because I have chosen to wait to have sex, I’m afraid I won’t find someone or will eventually have to give in at the cost of hurting myself. I hate that I feel so alone with this decision.

I am the only white person in my close circle of friends. I love all of them, they're awesome people and I would never want to replace them...but I do wish I had more white friends. I kinda miss hanging out with people like me.

I've never had no strings attached sex but I want to so badly.

i'm late to class so much because i masturbate so much

I have an extreme phobia of wetting the bed. So after about 7, I don't drink anything, and I stay up really late to make sure I don't need to pee before I go to sleep.

I've been having way too many sex dreams recently. Maybe it's just that time of year. It's just awkward having a vivid sex dream about someone that you are friends with and then seeing them on campus or whatever

I made out with my roommate. We are pretending it never happened! I wonder how long that will last.

I only think about a new person because it's much less painful than thinking about the old one.

A man touched me and tried to kiss me on Franklin Street. Nobody took me seriously, so I tried to convince myself it was just a joke- it wasn't a joke.

Sometimes I want to just stop being friends with you because of the crappy way you treat me. But for some reason I still adore you in spite of everything you do.

I hate how much control you have over me.

Comment here to submit a secret 4/10/08

I'm being pursued by this girl in whom I am not interested but I'm okay with it because I feel like I'm the attractive guy in an independent romance movie that the girl likes at the beginning before meeting the quirky protagonist and learning a lesson about life and love.

Ever since I graduated and moved away, I feel like all my friends have forgotten about me. Especially you

we broke up after such a short time. I didn't love you when we were together, but I've fallen for you now that we're apart. I took a chance on the "Nice Guy," but it was ME who finished last.

I still think I see you on campus even though I know that you are not coming back. I see your car, I see you on campus, yet I realize that it is not you. Losing you left a major void in my life and I guess that only time can heal wounds. I stay strong in front of others, but sometimes I just cry and I cannot stop crying.

I'm not sure if it was rape, but I would rather believe you are a rapist than that I willingly lost my virginity to someone like you turned out to be.

You ruined so many songs for me that I had put on mix-tapes for you or were "our" songs. I can't even enjoy making fun of and singing along with boy bands anymore.

I'm not going to graduate in May. I don't know how to tell my parents. I can't afford to take summer school.

today i didn't get out of bed. i am a complete failure in everything i do. i act happy and crazy to everyone--really, involved in things, friends, i go out-- but the facade is getting too hard to keep up.

the depression meds aren't working, but i lie to my doctor and say they are because they make me lose weight.

As we continue to keep in touch, I wonder more and more what my life would be like now if I was at school with you...
I think we might be soulmates.

I really don't like you like that anymore...

I just want to make out with you before I graduate.

i'm going to take your drunken advice about just going for it.

i'm going to tell you i like you.

i hope that this is what you meant, and even if it isn't, thanks for helping me realize that i can.

I like you a lot. You're intelligent, beautiful, seductive. And yet, the only thing keeping me from being with you is what my friends think of you.

I'm sorry.

Could you please lie to me just once? Your honesty sometimes makes me want to throw up.

I think about my weight a lot...it's ridiculous how much I compare myself to other people.. I want to be perfect, to have that great body and be in shape..to lose those 10 pounds I've carried for a few years now. I hate myself, I'm self-destructive..and I over-eat.

Why do I want to defeat myself in terms of food?

My roommate watched porn and masturbated while I was pretending to sleep 5 feet away. It kind of turned me on...

Comment here to submit a secret 4/9/08

The thing I want most in the world is a complete do-over on my entire life. I can't shake the feeling that it's too late...for everything.

Sometimes it consumes my thoughts so intensely and for so long I miss out on what I'm supposed to be doing now. And that makes me wish I could go back even more. It's a vicious cycle I can't escape.

I've watched porn and masturbated while my roommate was asleep just 5ft away.

I let my suitemate take a shower before me this morning while I shaved, just so I could watch him get out.

The chlorine smell of a swimming pool turns me on.

I've always considered myself straight, but when I got on that elevator in Davis and saw that he was in there, I felt this attraction and desire I've never felt with women.

I DON'T think it was a mistake, and I don't regret it. Pretending it was doesn't erase what happened, it just makes you a liar, and makes me love you a little less. Which might be a good thing...

i drink so i dont have to deal with this shit



but the next morning, the rude awaking is anything but pretty



i just want a break from all of this

Comment here to submit a secret 4/8/08

I haven't done laundry in two weeks. If I smell next time you see me, it's not my B.O. it's my laziness...

I'm sorry I wasn't as helpful or as nice as I should've been. I love hanging out with you despite the fact that most of my friends don't like you very much. You are so much fun to be around.

I think I might be bisexual. How do I tell my girlfriend this? I still love her and am very much attracted to her.

i'm starting to worry that i don't know how to be truly happy anymore.

somebody help?

The more I've thought about it the less I believe you felt or feel bad about what happened. Your actions certainly didn't show it.

my friends always tell me they appreciate me being brutally honest with them.

i don't want their thanks, i just want them to return the favor.

I like it when my male friends flirt with me even though I have a boyfriend whom I love and I know my friends don't actually mean it.

It makes me believe I might actually be pretty or special or something.

I had no idea that a penis that large actually existed.

But apparently size doesn't matter.

My roommate is a gross slob and I fucking hate cleaning up after him.

I hate the fact that you like other men.

Cool as your girlfriend sounds, I'm a little disappointed she's coming here next year because it means I'll probably have to stop flirting with you.

I knew he was married, and after our affair was over, i felt zero guilt. Now, I met another amazing man....who is also married.

Y am I that woman? I know what im doing is wrong, and yet the fact that I feel no remorse, makes me feel like there is something wrong with me. I feel like a bad person.

sometimes i look at my friends and just marvel at how pretentious they all are


and then i worry that i'm the same

it's not really a secret that i love you, but sometimes i think you wished it was.

I steal toilet paper from campus buildings to use at my apartment because I'm too cheap to buy my own.

if you came out, i think i would be brave enough to, too

I thought I was over you last semester. But I wasn't. I think about you all the time and I really don't want to because I really don't want a boyfriend right now. Why do you have to pester my thoughts?

Every once and a while I go to your facebook profile and look at your albums and cry.

It's still so hard.

sometimes... I just look around and smile.

i like a guy my friend seems to like, but because she hasn't actually said she likes him, i think i'll pretend i have no clue

I know this is horrible and it's the opposite of everything I've ever said to you, but, truth is: if we don't have sex soon, I'm moving on.

Worst part is that you actually are, amazingly, probably worth waiting for.

i hide the medicine i take from everyone in my life. i dont know how i will handle it when the truth comes out.

for the first time in YEARS--

i am CONFIDENT that i am HOT and AMAZING...and it's all because of you--thank you, for being the douche bag that you turned out to be, because it taught me more about myself than i ever could have learned on my own (and i am 100% serious)

I'm jealous of almost all of my friends. They all seem to have almost perfect lives going for them and I feel like mine is just a pile of shit in comparison.

Comment here to submit a secret 4/7/08

When I'm alone in the car, I hold conversations with you as if you're sitting next to me in the front seat. I haven't spoken to you in almost a year and try to deny that I've been in love with you for the last 6 years. Your girlfriend goes to UNC too.

I'm so fucking talented.
Most of you absolutely are not.
And I laugh at you.
All the time

I steal candy from convenience stores.

A lot.

I kind of wish I hadn't asked you to get rid of the nude pictures you took of me ... I might have liked to see how hot I actually was when I get old.

I have a huge crush on my ex boyfriend's best friend, who also happens to be one of my best friend's crush/prospective boyfriend...and I'm really tempted to just say "screw it" and try to pursue him anyway, even though it will mess everything up, because he's amazing.

I love him...really, more than anything or anyone I've ever loved. But it seems that all I can think of lately is being with someone else. Not a relationship, just the excitement of being with someone new.
The worst part is knowing that I wouldn't feel guilty if I did....what is wrong with me?

The only thing that I wouldn't sacrifice for you is also the only thing that would keep us together.

I'm going to check where I stand with you before we leave in 4 weeks. I guess this is a temporary secret, but I want to be sure I do it.

You'll never know all of my secrets. And I don't think you'd want to.

I've been such an idiot. How could I have fixated on him when you -- wonderful, amazing, handsome, funny, kind you -- have been right next to me this whole time? It's like discovering coffee or the Beatles for the first time.