i just want you to know your girlfriend flirts with my best friend every time you aren't around

i hate my best friend

i like watching gay sex

I'm going to start smoking because I feel the need to do something self-destructive that doesn't leave a scar.

I will never forget how you found me attractive when I felt so ugly. Thank you.

If I get another crappy score on another LSAT, I'm going to hang myself.

I would give anything to talk to you and hear your voice again- knowing that’s impossible kills me every day

I'm glad you're moving to Charlotte, it's such a great opportunity. You hate your job, and the new one will give you better pay, benefits (which you currently lack), better hours, more respect, more freedom, a better office, you'll be closer to your family...it's just so perfect for you. But when I found out that you want to break up when you move because you "can't do long distance", it made me wish I hadn't pushed so hard for you to find a better job. Is it terrible that I can't decide between you having a job that makes you miserable, but I get to be with you, or you having the perfect job, and I have to let you go.

I've ended all of my past relationships because I lost feelings for the other person.

I'm crazy about you, but you have become so apathetic. I don't think that anything is going to change. I don't know what to do. If you want to end things, I wish you'd be man enough to tell me.

Comment Here to submit a secret 6/9/08

when i woke up this morning, i had 2 tampons in. i'm not really sure how that happened...

I hear my old stalker just moved back to town. It's cool though, because he doesn't know how to find me. I almost wish he did, though, so I would have a reason to send my big angry brother to beat him up.

I beat myself up everyday for missing my chance. It's happened more times then I care to count now.

Comment Here to submit a secret 6/8/08

I think you might have Asperger's, but if you seem more normal than I feel, what does that say about me?

I'm not fat or anything, but I love eating. Many times I will try to steal my roommates food without them knowing, just because I am hungry. Sometimes, I even do it when they are looking just so we will talk about food.

i'm bad at making friends.

i keep my distance.

i come across as cold but i'm really just shy and think too much before i speak.

blah.

because my friends know i read this page all the time i'm worried they think some of the secrets here are about them, even though I've never posted before this. it's scary how many of these secrets are my own.

I'm having the time of my life this summer. I can't stop thinking about how much more fun it would be if you were here with me!

I came out as a bisexual during my sophomore year when I was working with a UNC theater production. When the actors did not believe I was bisexual, I went back into the closet. The only other person I have ever confessed my bisexuality to (offline) was my mother and she still has not believed me to this day.

I wake up every morning and wonder why I hurt so bad, even though I have the power to help others so well. I was called just the other the day kindest person someone knew, but I have no one to come to with my own problems, except this site. Holding the weight of the world on your shoulders, your back is bound to tire out I suppose...

I try to "fill up" my schedule so that I don't see you a lot. I do it to make you miss me, so that the next time I see you, you tell me how much you missed me and shower me with kisses. I really want this relationship to work, but I'm also tired of putting so much more effort into it than you do.

I feel like all my friends are having adventures abroad or doing cool, fun internships, and I'm stuck at home in a horrific minimum wage job. It makes me afraid for my future.

Comment Here To Submit A Secret 6/7/08

So even though my friends are certain that you like me (you behave like you do when we're alone) and when you talk to me you always bring up amazing plans to do fun things when school starts back up, I still wonder how a confident 'bad ass' like you could handle and maintain a relationship. I have some hope though, you match my wit and throw it back at me and when I act cocky or 'hostile' you just laugh and tease me back into my normal sweet behavior. Also you love my country accent and I love being able to be my old country girl self around you.

Choosing a major that I liked freshman year seemed like a wonderful idea at the time but as I enter my senior year I wonder if I'm actually going to be able to find a job after graduation

I have really high career goals. I think that I could be great at what I do.

I'm afraid to admit to the people I work with that I'd be willing to give all of it up to have a family with you.

now that you no longer trust me and confide in me with all your secrets, it seems like a quarter of these are from you. and it breaks my heart, i never tried to abandon you, but you felt that way, and so im scared you will never allow us to be like we were - the closest that partners could ever be, sharing everything, and holding each through every tough time.

I can't believe you actually wrote that on juicycampus.

I love you, grandma.

Comment Here To Submit A Secret 6/6/08

I was afraid of vampires when I was a little kid. Even now, I still can't fall asleep unless my neck is entirely covered by my blanket.

you're really good at acting like you don't care about stuff like that but IM SO GLAD that you admitted that you cared today. we are far apart and i really needed that. thank you!

If I don't get over my inability to masturbate in my parents' house soon, I am going to LOSE MY FREAKING MIND.

I've considered committing suicide, but now that I've seen how much it hurt my family when someone we cared about did it, I get sick just thinking about doing something like that. The people who do it, or want to do it, clearly haven't been close to someone who has.

Songs are great. They allow me to sing my secret...and yet still keep it a secret.

"My friends say-
They’re proud of me-
For taking our break up-
So casually-
But they don’t see-
What lies beneath my smile-

It appears-
That I’m okay-
That I moved on-
When you walked away-
But the truth is-
Since you said goodbye-

I’m invisibly shaken-
And quietly breakin’-
Desperately takin’ one breath at a time-
Beneath this composure-
I know it’s over-
Baby I’m dying cause you can’t be mine-
But I will never show the toll it’s taken-
Cause I’m invisibly shaken-"

I like you. You have a girlfriend. And that sucks.

I know you're missing him and not me. But I miss you more than ever these days.

Could you imagine a year ago we'd be here? I couldn't.

i used to think you would stop loving me if you knew all my secrets. but really it's just brought us closer together. i don't need to be mystery girl anymore.

For the first time I'm in a relationship and have no inkling of a feeling to wonder what it would be like with someone else. No other crushes, I don't even look at the others on the street and fantasize about them. I can only think about YOU. I love the feeling, but at the same time it scares me - could you really be the one I've been waiting for? We have a long and hard road ahead of us...I guess we'll see.

I'm afraid Obama won't live up to the hype if he's elected president, but I know that isn't a popular opinion w/ our generation, so I usually keep my mouth shut in political conversations.

I don't have feelings for you anymore. It took me awhile, but the inevitable finally hit me: we'll never be as close as we were, and I'll always think less of you for how you treated me. In the end, I AM glad we're still pretty good friends.

I hate that you gave your new girlfriend a pet name.

My parents treat my sister and I differently. It's very clear my dad likes her better. I'm sure they love us the same, but for some reason he ignores me when she's around. It really hurts my feelings.

Im drunk right now and the one thing im completely sure of is that i love my friends and that the fun i have with tthem is work all this trouble, and all the time apart. so what if i never find any soul mate, these people are my ones to live for.

For what it's worth, I know I'm not the most perfect, best-looking man on the planet Earth. And not even at UNC. But I feel like I deserve something, anything. I just need to crash into someone, connect for just a moment. I'm sick of being alone.

I have been a very responsible, moral person my whole life. I used to believe that someday I would be thankful for it and see the benefit. But, now I'm starting to wonder. Is it worth it? Am I missing out more than I am gaining?

Comment Here To Submit A Secret 6/4/08

I'm not asking to be everybody's everything...

I just want to be somebody's something...

I'm tired of being alone...

Where are you?

It's been a year and a half since we broke up. I'm just now starting to believe you probably aren't the one for me.

I only keep up our friendship now because I feel guilty for breaking up with you.

I'm terrified of achieving the goal I've been working towards my whole life just to realize that it's not what I want.

sometimes i wish my friends weren't so interesting

they make me feel boring and unaccomplished.

i cannot concentrate on anything. i am so horny ... all i think about is sex. and i'm a girl.

i wish i had a fuck buddy. no strings attached.

yours truly,
sexually frustrated

I've been talking to this new guy. He's awesome, dates are fun and everything and he's really really good for me. I like him a lot.

The only problem is the sex is REALLY bad. help!

It felt good to fuck him for fuck sake. To relentlessly punish him for hurting me the way he did. Too bad he liked it so much.

I know my ex's passwords. I hate that so much - I don't want to. But I do. And I logged into her facebook earlier today to see what she had been up to - to know how she was living her life without me.

I'm so ashamed. It's been 6 months.

see me as more than a friend. please.

This summer, we're supposed to take a break from each other. But we still talk, and for some reason, you've been penetrating my dreams, too. It's not a longing to be back with you...but it's really missing you as a friend. And it kills me that our boundaries will never let me have you like that.

im going to student health tomorrow. im getting help. im not backing down or chickening out.


im not telling anyone, i need to prove to myself im strong enough to do this on my own.

the rumblings of my empty tummy

both pick me up

and destroy me

Oh my God.

What am I doing?

I'm a sophomore in college. The world is boundless!

And I'm done thinking the world is small because I put it inside of you.

If it wasn't for Facebook reminders, I would never remember any of my friends' birthdays.

I'm happy for you, I truly am. I'm glad you're finding out who you are; I'm glad you've found someone.

But it's difficult for me. For almost two years now, I've wanted to be the girl for you. And now you've found him instead.

I don't know whether you're deceiving me again or not. I'm scared to get close to you again because if you were to do what you did before, it would absolutely crush me. I know that if you hadn't lied so many times before, I wouldn't be worried about this at all, but now I seriously have questions about your morality and it's hurting my ability to let you be my friend. The only way I know of protecting myself from you is to shut myself off from you emotionally.

Please, please, please don't hurt me again.

I mock all the girls who get engaged/married while they're still in college, but really I envy them. I'm tired of falling for all the wrong guys and looking for mr. right. I just want to find him already!!

the idea of dating you makes me giddy inside. I don't know if you'll ever see me this way though.

I wish I could go back to the first day of high school and change everything. I'd make sure we had gone to the same college. I always think about what we could have been like if we'd shared that experience together.

I make a point of telling people that I'm a top-tier student at a good university just because I know that, in conversation, I come across as an idiot.

i know you read this.

you're a bad friend. i'm starting to think you're also a bad person. i wish i could tell you that.

i'm worried i'll never be enough to be a guy's "everything"


i'm worried because i;m not even good enough for myself.

He played one too many games with me. Yesterday I told him I've had enough. And I actually meant it. And it was because of you. I keep trying to bring it up in conversation, but it never works, so I will just say it here. Thank you for making me strong.

I'm over you!

I'm friends with a girl who is perfect for me. she's beautiful, nice, funny, and smart. but unfortunately she has a boyfriend, and it's not me, but it could have been had I not missed my chance. I really suck at initiating those things and that is part of the reason I am leaving after the summer and not returning.

Please propose while we're at the beach...

I know you have the ring. You know I'll say yes.

Please, please, please!

You really suck at relationships.

At least, you suck at them with me.

Comment Here To Submit A Secret 6/3/08

you're not alone. i know.

(really and truly, i do.)

Please propose while we're at the beach...

I know you have the ring. You know I'll say yes.

Please, please, please!

You really suck at relationships.

At least, you suck at them with me.

How strange it is that I have no wish to die; you could even call it a thirst for life; yet I have my suicide - from the note, to the books to my left and to my right, and the manner all planned out.

i really REALLY like him

BUT


i'm just so worried i'll mess it up. i'm willing to admit to myself that i'm afraid of being hurt, of even lettin anyone close enough to have the chance. why why why

Comment here to submit a secret 5/31/08

When I first started dating my boyfriend, he told me that it would take a long time for him to get to a place where he could have sex with me.

It's been almost six months, I'm very much in love with him, and I'm so glad that we haven't had sex yet. SO GLAD.

I'm waiting until my wedding night until I have sex but sometimes it's really really difficult. I've thought about masturbation but I'm pretty sure that being a Christian means that that's not an option either. I really really do want to do the Godly thing, but it's really getting difficult.

I haven't been depressed like this for two years. I don't know if I'm strong enough to get out again.

Sometimes you're so lethargic around me and other friends of ours that are girls, then you perk up immediately when the guys come around. It's annoying and obvious.

I just looked at pictures of us together from last year and fall semester....REALLY looked at them. And I could see the life and love in your eyes and mine. I realized I hadn't felt an inkling of that or seen you like that in such a long time.

I cried a little over you for the first time in many months. Fuck.

1. you know I love you.
2. you know that I miss you and that I want to see you.
3. you're only home for three more days.
4. our paths won't cross again until August, if then.
5. call me, stupid.

thanks for inviting me, ass holes.

UNC's girls worry too much about being rail thin. I dont know about any of you, but I love a well done muffin top!

now that i think about it, i really did hate my roomate.

i lied to my parents about making deans list again.

Comment here to submit a secret 5/30/08

I worry that when I tell people now that I'm anorexic (I was nearly hospitalized when I was in middle school), they see my more-than-generous current body and don't believe me. I also worry that when I try to be encouraging to people who are struggling with the disease by sharing my success story, they look at me as their worst nightmare.

I just had sex in the back seat of my car. I feel dirty but OH SO fantastic!

why are there so many people with unrequited love on this site? and why aren't they about me?

I think I'm developing an eating disorder. The last several months have been really tough for me emotionally, and I can't eat when I'm upset. Now, I feel like I can't eat anyway, even though things are getting better in my personal life. I feel like if I know I should be eating more, I should be able just to eat more. The solution seems simple....so why can't I just make myself eat?

even though you did it in the most cowardly way, thank you for realizing what i should have realized. i just wish it wasn't awkward now.

I give up. I'm going to take the easy way out and just be a hardened jerk.

I give up. I'm going to take the easy way out and just be a hardened jerk.