I don't fit in with my group of friends anymore. It seems like they only have mean things to say to me.

Comment Here to Submit a Secret 3/16/09

NYC was supposed to be our spring break trip - you took it with her instead.

tonight I lost all faith in gay men... all of them.. I tried so hard to give you everything, give you a chance to show me that you of all people were not like the rest of them... I defended you in front of all of them, and you still let me down... I never want to date again because of you

I read FML way too much - numerous times a day - and I get disappointed when they haven't updated it. It makes me feel so much better about my life!

Comment Here to Submit a Secret 3/12/09

I'm not voting for Anoop.

I'm tired of random hookups and pretending that I can keep my emotions out of it. I just want to meet a nice guy who wants a serious relationship. Where are you?

You are the kind of guy that I have waited for most of my life to fall in love with. You are kind, sweet, caring, and you love to see me smile. Now if only you could get past flaking out on 75% of our plans (that you mostly initiate), I think we would have the time of our lives, in a relationship or not.

a few months after we broke up I had a short fling with your best friend.

Because of my ex, I am now completely re-evaluating every belief that I used to hold and becoming stronger in my convictions than ever before. I'm completely grateful to him, and only hope that I had some sort of effect on his life, too. A part of me wants me to tell him all of this, but the other part of me thinks that he wouldn't care.... just like always.

I was so flattered when you said you thought I had my shit together... but the truth is, I really don't. At all. I may know what I want in a lot of ways, but knowing what you want is absolutely useless when you have no idea where to find it.

My girlfriend left for her spring break trip with a bunch of her friends. Including some guys she's hooked up with in the past. I haven't heard from her all day, and I'm worried about what may be going on...

Comment Here to Submit a Secret 3/9/09

I HATE Carrboro.

You asked me why I was living so far away next year. I told you I couldn't afford Chapel Hill. Truth is that I'm living with him next year, and it's easier for both of us being half way. I'm not going to tell you the truth, you'll find out eventually.

I miss you sometimes. Sometimes I want to talk to you more, but I have to hold myself back because I'm finally okay with where we are. I'm afraid that if I talk to you more, it might ruin both of our new relationships.

I like you, I know you at least realize that my feelings for you exist, but I'm like 99.99% sure that you do not reciprocate my feelings. I am not the kind of person to come out and tell you how I feel, and I am not going to stop liking you. I wish you would give me a sign to just give up on you because I won't until I know for sure that we don't have a chance at being together.

My girlfriend has loved me since before we started dating. She's the sweetest, nicest, most intelligent, amazing person I've ever met, and I feel like the luckiest guy on campus because I'm with her.

Since being with her, I've felt extremely content and validated, but have not acquired the joy I've felt in other relationships. I want nothing more than to feel that joy and longing for her in this relationship, but it hasn't come yet. Maybe my last one broke me. I've never broken anyone's heart before, but I feel like it's inevitable, and like people here and elsewhere would want to smack me for entertaining the thought of throwing away someone so special.

Maybe I did deserve to have my heart broken.

I only met her once. I only spoke with her for about 5 minutes. She then gave a presentation about Carolina -- "excellence with a heart." And I still miss Eve.

Eve Carson day depresses me. If I died, there would be no campus-wide mourning ceremony, no Daily Tar Heel spread, no speeches by the chancellor. Nobody would give a shit.

I need you to stop being so on again/off again with him. I want to prove to you that when you're with the right person, relationships are great!

I really believe that if the media didn't bitch about the economy so much, the economy would be better.

Media, movies, and tv dont only make me feel fat; they make me feel like a social failure. Since childhood they have ingrained in me the image of what I should be or have: taller, thinner, more outgoing, happier, fitter, bigger boobs, smaller ass, tighter jeans, cuter shoes, tinier swimsuits, lots of dates or a sweet and attractive boyfriend, dreams of a high-powered career, three kids, and a loving husband. This is a single round hole, I'm a square peg, and, therefore, I've felt bad about myself for going on 12 years now...

I think I might be the only woman on this campus who doesn't want a boyfriend.

Comment Here to Submit a Secret 3/5/09

Things that suck about my life:

-Try as I might, and despite being reaffirmed that I am a "Good Guy," I can't get a date.
-Try as I might, I can spend hours on an assignment and still fail it.
-My parents want to micromanage my life to the point where they know my grades before I do, because they check all of my UNC stuff (email, blackboard, etc)

Things about my life that don't suck
-My friends actually care about me, and they know how much I hate myself. Without them, I honestly don't know if I could wake up each day.

I hate that I am "fat" by media/celebrity standards. I weigh 130 pounds. I shouldn't feel bad about that.

Comment Here to Submit a Secret 3/4/09

I am single, have a bitchy roommate, am still in the closet to my parents, worry that one of my good friends has a crush on me, haven't had sex in over six months, and have had three days of schoolwork and midterms pile up because I've been sick. I have a severe form of amnesia, and my best friend has been halfway across the world for the past year.

And yet I'm completely content with my life. When I read this website, I sometimes feel bad being happy when there are so many sad little secrets out there. But maybe I'm not the one with the problem.

I tolerate but secretly loathe it when people say "You're a girl, you can get a guy whenever you want to." If it was that easy, I wouldn't be alone my entire life.

This is a conversation I've put off with my parents for a long while...

"Hi mom, I have a boyfriend. I love him. Hi dad, I don't really want to be a surgeon. I don't really want to work with you in the operating room."

I want to sleep for days. I'm so tired that I can hardly stand it. From the moment that I wake up, the only thing I want to do is go back to sleep.

I felt like such a waste of space that I ended up screaming and crying in my car. You were the only person that I wanted to talk to, but you were the reason that I was crying. And I can't stand it anymore.

Last night, I drank two beers as fast as I could just so that I could get drunk and feel less shitty about myself. It worked for the first part -- the second one, not so much.

I wish you weren't so scared of trying to make this work. At the same time, I wish I would stop pushing it because I'm so afraid of losing you.

Comment Here to Submit a Secret 3/2/09

I have waited for so long to hear those words….the same words I wanted to whisper to you every single night. And now that you said them, I am so lost. I am happy, sad, confused and so fucking scared. I keep telling myself I will finally get over you, and I can’t. And I convince myself you can’t love me, and then you make me think there just might be a possibility. And I’m lost. I’m lost just as much as you are. But…if you would let me, I would love you every single moment of my life.

I am so utterly broken...and NO ONE knows it. It hurts to much to go through this all alone.

An amazing friend just gave me Phase 1 tickets for the game and there isn't a single person who I want to bring who would take me if they won the tickets.

I always speculate as to whether or not my best friend from home would approve of potential love interests. If I don't think so, I tend to shy away.

I'm not afraid to leave UNC because I'm scared of the real world, but because I'm afraid I'll stop learning and stagnate.

Sometimes I worry about how far I'd be willing to go for an A. That would test my ethics most at this point in my life.

So does sex last night mean we are going to stop speaking as much? I know it wasn't the best or anything, but I'm willing if you are to chalk it up to it being the first time and thus a little awkward. Either way, I take it personally when you don't talk to me all day, even though I called and texted you.

I miss you too, and I'm not sure how I'm going to get over you again.

Comment Here to Submit a Secret 2/25/09

I can feel myself turning into a different person. I'm not sure if I like that person or not. I'm just worried that I'm making my friends angry. But at the same time... I figure that if they really care, they'll accept me. If not, I'm better without them. I hope.

I think I'm slipping into depression...again.

I miss you more than you can imagine... and way more than I should.

I am currently being diagnosed, for alas, something has suddenly gone wrong with my brain. I liked who I was before all this started, and I'm readjusting. But I am ruining many a relationship along the way. Innocents are getting wrapped up in my shit, and I'm sorry. I am sorry.

My boyfriend loves me and I think I can't love him back now. I'm going to have to lose him because of all this. And he's the best person I've been with so far. We have been best friends for a year. I miss that. I am going to crush him. I'm sorry for that too.

i find you fascinating, but shouldn't even think about you. i'm practically engaged. when i'm not with you, i think about you. when i am with you, i think about how it would be to touch you...i'm so torn.

It'd be so cool if a girl asked me out for once.

I have a year and 2 months left to tell my best girl friend that I'm in love with her. Wish me luck.

I've never been this scared in my life. Everything just happened at once and I'm on the edge of a nervous breakdown. Nobody is making me feel better either....they say things aren't that bad but I don't believe them. I'm smoking weed to just calm down.....I hope it doesn't become habitual.

every time I like a guy, he meets my room mate and likes her more. I end up being the middle man to try to get them together...

Comment Here to Submit a Secret 2/22/09

Someone in my family just passed away. I want to talk about life and death with someone but I can't do it without feeling horrible about myself, like I'm speaking in cliches and asking too much of the other person.

She says I'm all she ever wanted, but she keeps telling me I need to change, that I'm not doing things right, that I should act/do/be a different way...does she really love me, or am I just a safe place to be until a better catch comes along?

College boys infuriate me. I frequently think I would be better off dating women (I like both), but I'm afraid none of the cute bi/lesbian girls on campus would go out with me.

Ever since I got a glimpse at what you're really like, I knew you'd be watching my relationship, praying for it to fail, but you don't know anything about it, or him, so maybe stop before you find out something about us that'll really disappoint you.

I was so sure that I was right this time. And then all of a sudden, you made me feel like everything I had felt was completely unjustified, petty, and selfish. I can't believe that once again, you made me feel like I screwed up.

Why can't I stay mad at you??!

Today, i took the first steps towards accepting myself and being honest with you....and i'm finally starting to feel so free!

I wish I could find a girl who is dominant, adventurous, and intelligent. Unfortunately, all the girls I know who are like that are already my good friends.

Whenever I meet a girl, I almost immediately become the "good friend who also serves as a human shield from creepy guys," and thus lose my chance at anything more. It doesn't help that people always assume I'm gay. I just don't know how to talk to women.

i'm so fucking lonely. i just wish there were someone who cared about me and wanted to be with me so i wouldnt be crying alone on my couch right now. i wish i knew why i am crying and i wish i could stop.

I do love you and really want to be with you, but your "forever" and "the one for me" and "the best thing to ever happen to me" frankly scare me.

I'm sorry.

Comment Here to Submit a Secret 2/19/09

Ironically, I am actually over you. It's funny though how you're falling into the exact same patterns that you had with me with your current guy but think there's a difference. I can't wait to laugh when it falls apart, and I don't care if it's bitter and "unhealthy" to still resent you.

My best friend uses me so much, and every time I feel that I've reached my breaking point, something draws me back into it. I just don't know when I'll be able to say stop.

Sometimes I wish that I would develop an eating disorder. Then sometimes I'm scared that I already have.

Bitches, grow a pair and tell me what the hell is going on. This isn't fucking middle school anymore.

I know that you don't want to do long distance, and to be honest, I don't either. But really! Look at what we're doing. I talk to you every day, I tell you everything, you know everything about me, I know that you love me and that I love you! So what if I haven't seen you in over a year. I'm yours, and you know it. Now just let me say that I love you!

Sometimes I just want to stop trying in school. Not hand in my mid-terms. Say "screw you, I have better things to do than write that paper. Like sleeping." But alas, and back to paper writing.

I wish that I could tell you how utterly disappointed in you I am at this moment. But, because I care so much about you, I probably will sugar coat it and pretend that what you just did didn't make cry.

I plan on having a high-powered career, but secretly dream of helping my future kids get ready for their school dances, and having a beautiful home that everyone wants to be in.

I wish I could get in a relationship, for once.

I don't know whether or not "The Jasmine Consensus" was actually a well-intentioned political pursuit, or just a bunch of people being really vindictive.

I never really learned how to make friends, so now I don't have any. I'm afraid I'll be alone all my life.

I really don't like you at all. You're so selfish and you're thought process is incredibly warped if you think this is "awesome". I used to try to like you, because I thought you deserved it, but you don't and I can't get it through to you that you are a terrible person, short of telling you. But I'm scared if I do tell you, you'll just be upset and you'll never get over it. What do I do? Suffer in silence and painfully make conversation while avoiding your gaze, just so you don't cry, or tell you to leave me alone so I can live my life without you, but with the guilt of making you feel terrible about yourself. Now, it's at the point where I wish I'd just never met you, or at least you'd just take a hint and leave me be. Hey, I guess I can take comfort in the knowledge that soon enough, I'll never ever have to see you again.

i accidentally discovered your secret fetish, now i wish you'd open up to me about it so i could try it already

I read a lot of secrets on here about catching someone looking at someone else, but I know when I catch you looking at me, it's because you're hoping I don't want you for anything more than the sex, you're hoping I still want you for the sex, and you're hoping I won't tell anyone about any of it.

At least that's what I'm hoping.

Last night when you started snoring and faced the other way and I knew you were really asleep, I was big spoon like always, and I whispered "I love you". I dont know if it's true or not, but I think I will just keep whispering it until I feel like you would hold eye contact with me after I said it out loud.

dear roommate,
every time you piss me off, I eat some of your food. So next time you wonder where those chips went, it's because it never occurred once to you to invite me to that basketball game. (really? didn't we used to be friends? oh well...)

When I sing along to Britney's "Womanizer," I picture myself singing it to you. Maybe that's unfair of me. But it's just who you are, baby...

I know I broke your heart before and that I'm probably going to do it again this time....I just really want to give this a try (legitimately)....there's so much I like about you.

I have a boyfriend, and we have talked about how impossible it would be for me to break it off. Still, you are on my mind basically all the time, especially after Friday and how amazing it felt to be with you like that, even just for the two hours we had.

I did it partly out of altruism, out of the idea of giving love and expecting nothing in return. And it was a nice feeling. But I also did it to impress you. please come to my room tomorrow so that I might give you the rose I intended for you. Because if I am ever happy, if my life is at all good now, it is because of you, and once you're out of my life I honestly don't know what I'm going to do.

I hate myself. I'll never be loved.

I am beginning to realize that all the time and money I have spent on drinking was a total waste of my life

I know we broke up, but I kind of just want to spend Valentine's Day with you. But I also know that would be really bad for both of us after the fact.

I met this guy, but he's 6 years older than me! I'm afraid hes told old for me and will pressure me...

I know we broke up, but I kind of just want to spend Valentine's Day with you. But I also know that would be really bad for both of us after the fact.

You genuinely hurt my feelings last night. I didn't know you disliked me so much. I don't know if I should have fired off a come back or talked to you about it.

i think about what it would be like to have sex with you all the time

You're the last one that I want to speak to when I go to sleep, and the first one I want to hear when I wake up. I love you.

Now choose me.

My tampon was bothering me this afternoon. No wonder -- when I went to deal with it, turns out I had two (super plus) tampons in. What the hell, vagina? I feel like that shouldn't even be possible for a virgin.

Comment Here to Submit a Secret 2/13/09

I'm beginning to realize that I can do a lot better than you, and all that stuff you did to me wasn't worth the time i spent crying over it. I have never felt so free or so happy.

I'm more lonely than I've ever been. It's scary.

I feel like i am always there for my friends. But when it's my turn, no one is there for me.