I don't fit in with my group of friends anymore. It seems like they only have mean things to say to me.

Comment Here to Submit a Secret 3/16/09

NYC was supposed to be our spring break trip - you took it with her instead.

tonight I lost all faith in gay men... all of them.. I tried so hard to give you everything, give you a chance to show me that you of all people were not like the rest of them... I defended you in front of all of them, and you still let me down... I never want to date again because of you

I read FML way too much - numerous times a day - and I get disappointed when they haven't updated it. It makes me feel so much better about my life!

Comment Here to Submit a Secret 3/12/09

I'm not voting for Anoop.

I'm tired of random hookups and pretending that I can keep my emotions out of it. I just want to meet a nice guy who wants a serious relationship. Where are you?

You are the kind of guy that I have waited for most of my life to fall in love with. You are kind, sweet, caring, and you love to see me smile. Now if only you could get past flaking out on 75% of our plans (that you mostly initiate), I think we would have the time of our lives, in a relationship or not.

a few months after we broke up I had a short fling with your best friend.

Because of my ex, I am now completely re-evaluating every belief that I used to hold and becoming stronger in my convictions than ever before. I'm completely grateful to him, and only hope that I had some sort of effect on his life, too. A part of me wants me to tell him all of this, but the other part of me thinks that he wouldn't care.... just like always.

I was so flattered when you said you thought I had my shit together... but the truth is, I really don't. At all. I may know what I want in a lot of ways, but knowing what you want is absolutely useless when you have no idea where to find it.

My girlfriend left for her spring break trip with a bunch of her friends. Including some guys she's hooked up with in the past. I haven't heard from her all day, and I'm worried about what may be going on...

Comment Here to Submit a Secret 3/9/09

I HATE Carrboro.

You asked me why I was living so far away next year. I told you I couldn't afford Chapel Hill. Truth is that I'm living with him next year, and it's easier for both of us being half way. I'm not going to tell you the truth, you'll find out eventually.

I miss you sometimes. Sometimes I want to talk to you more, but I have to hold myself back because I'm finally okay with where we are. I'm afraid that if I talk to you more, it might ruin both of our new relationships.

I like you, I know you at least realize that my feelings for you exist, but I'm like 99.99% sure that you do not reciprocate my feelings. I am not the kind of person to come out and tell you how I feel, and I am not going to stop liking you. I wish you would give me a sign to just give up on you because I won't until I know for sure that we don't have a chance at being together.

My girlfriend has loved me since before we started dating. She's the sweetest, nicest, most intelligent, amazing person I've ever met, and I feel like the luckiest guy on campus because I'm with her.

Since being with her, I've felt extremely content and validated, but have not acquired the joy I've felt in other relationships. I want nothing more than to feel that joy and longing for her in this relationship, but it hasn't come yet. Maybe my last one broke me. I've never broken anyone's heart before, but I feel like it's inevitable, and like people here and elsewhere would want to smack me for entertaining the thought of throwing away someone so special.

Maybe I did deserve to have my heart broken.

I only met her once. I only spoke with her for about 5 minutes. She then gave a presentation about Carolina -- "excellence with a heart." And I still miss Eve.