Sunday, April 26, 2009

I say I don't care if you hook up with other people, but I know I would cry if I found out that you did. I know we're not "dating", but it's not because I wouldn't. Please don't hurt me.
Every time I read the secrets on this site, I always want to edit them for grammar and spelling.
I am a binge eater. Nobody knows-- not even my closest friends. I feel powerless to stop it. I want to stop hating myself. You may know me...I'm the girl who's smiling on the outside but crying on the inside.
We were in an English class together but we've never spoken. You used to bring a fresh pack of gum and chew through the entire contents in one sitting. You are strikingly beautiful yet painfully thin. Sometimes, when I'm wasting time on facebook, I come across your pictures and cannot help but notice you wasting away. More and more, I think my suspicions are correct. Do your friends notice? Are you seeking help? I just want you to know that I think about you and that I hope you're okay.

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Tuesday, April 21, 2009

I think I might just go to you. I know you keep saying to do what's best for me, but to be honest, you might be what's best for me.
Just found out I've been stabbed in the back for a while now by my "best friend". Great.
I am unhappy pretty much all the time, but I can't bring myself to go to a counselor or take antidepressants, because treating it as something chemical would somehow cheapen or discount the fact that what you did to me was hurtful. "Oh, it's not my fault she's sad, it's just something wrong with her."
I guess it's not possible to have a great relationship with your ex-. One I can't get along with, the other can't help but constantly and tactlessly slip into conversations that they're actively flirting and looking around....and they're the one who wanted to end our 'ship.

Can I just date someone, break up with them, and have it be A okay? Please?
I love you. I wish I could express the depth of this feeling, to convince you to trust me and take a chance with me. But it turns out, love is not all you need.

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Sunday, April 19, 2009

I was the bigger person, and you were not. I'd like some credit now, please.

Why isn't anything good enough?

For some reason, I can't shake the feeling that you somehow enjoy seeing me fail or come up short.

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

I had way too much food today and my stomach wasn't sitting well with it. I tried to make myself throw up, but it didn't work. I almost feel disappointed.
I first got into the sport I am in to hide the bruises my step dad gave me.

Now I continue to hide the ones you give me.
Dear amazingly adorable couple in the Daily Grind,

We've never spoken. I don't know who you are. But seeing you two together makes my day everytime I see you. You are so lost in each other and it helps me remember that love really does exist. I haven't seen you in a while, but I just want to say thank you, both of you, for giving the rest of us hope.
A few days ago, my cousin showed me how to perform perfect fellatio... on the gear shift lever in her BMW. It's probably one of the most useful things she's taught me. I just wish I had the chance to practice on something other than a car.

Sunday, April 12, 2009

I miss you when you're not around. I don't know if I have feelings for you or not, but I definitely know that I miss you when you're not around.
I have spurts where I truly don't care about being single. And then something random and seemingly meaningless happens and it hits me like a truck. I hate being lonely.