Comment Here To Submit A Secret 6/12/08

I finally said goodbye to you, cut you out of my life for good. I was shaking as I deleted your number from my phone, and for a few hours I kept waiting for you to call and tell me that you really did want to try to make it work as friends. Then I realized that I didn't want to you to do that, I didn't want you to drag it out any longer. This is what I've needed to do for a long time, and I finally found the strength to be ready to do it.

With every passing day at my internship, I feel less and less confident in the abilities that I thought I had.

I don't think I'm good enough to be here right now, and I'm just praying that my boss doesn't realize that.

Can you fall for someone nearly 4 years younger because of the intensity and complexity of a night's conversation? Or could it just be the way you caught my eye from wherever you happened to be and how you brushed my back with your hand each time that you passed by?

dont you guys feel like theres more to life than just the regular day to day happenings in chapel hill? do you ever feel like you are scratching the surface of what it means to be alive?

i feel like the world has great things waiting for me and im ready...

Comment Here to submit a secret 6/11/08

i actually don't know if we're going to make it.

We talked about everything and where we stand for the summer. I'm so afraid we're going to get back to Chapel Hill in the fall and you won't want me, and you'll let me go.

I'm trying to stay positive that that won't happen. Please don't let me down, I'm falling for you more and more every day.

They say they want me to get better. But it doesn't really matter if I don't does it? All the things I have to give up to make sure my friends safe and happy are going to cost me a lot more than my emotional stability, and I don't even think they care. I keep saying "one more day" but I'm not sure how many of those are left before I give out...

please let me get this job. i really need it. i don't know if it's right to pray for something so selfish, especially after being a stranger to God for so long, but I am.

That's the first time I've ever felt like it was the other person's privilege to be with me. Like how I imagine beautiful people feel when they have sex with someone they know i uglier than them. But it's not because I'm more attractive. It's because I'm so much more beautiful than him on the inside.

I'm going to tell her. I think she'd want to know. And I have a right to; she hurt me before she hurt you, and just because you'd rather keep it all quiet doesn't mean I have to.

You're fantastic but I hate your girlfriend. She's immature, you admitted it yourself, and she doesn't deserve you. Therefore, I'm going to try to be a boyfriend-stealer. I know this makes me a bad person, but I kinda don't care.

i had the most amazing day yesterday. the most awesome things happened that i didn't even think were possible.

and at the end of the day even though i felt lucky about my life and that everything was so surreal...i felt unhappy and all of the negative things about myself even stronger than usual. why can't i just be happy?

Bad things happen when you drink too much...and I may have just ruined my rep with everyone I work with. To cover it up I'm lying about what happened and what I remember.

Great way to start the summer...

Both my brother and my sister are in relationships. I'm the oldest and I'm single. How is this fair!?!? I know its stupid but I want to be the first to get married, and I'm really beginning to think its no longer a possibility.

I used to laugh at those women on Maury for not knowing who fathered their child, but now I realize just how easy it could be and it really scares me.


Please God, don't let me be pregnant.

I don't miss my roommates.

I get really pissed off when people tell me that all I need is more confidence in myself and THEN I'll find the right guy.

I am confident. I truly believe I am a beautiful, smart woman. But sometimes I wonder if my confidence is what pushes guys away...

I bumped into you today, and it will probably be the last time we ever see each other.
After all we've been through and meant to each other over the past 7 years, you couldn't even get up out of your chair to hug me goodbye?


It makes me wonder if I ever really meant anything to you at all. And that really hurts because even though I've moved on, a part of me will always love you.