I think I'm supposed to be happy for you, because that's what friends do, but I'm not.
I want to be the center of your world. I want you to want to be with me and spend time with me.
More than anything I just want a friend who can also love me.
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Last year I submitted my secret that I was a sophomore and had no friends here. I'm almost a junior. I still don't have any.
I can be myself around everyone but you.
I know it's entirely unintentional, but you make me unhappy. The next time I talk to you will be the last. Sorry.
I get nervous thinking about the possibility you're flirting with other guys, much less hooking up with them. I don't miss the relationship and the stresses of it.....but I do miss you.
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Every day, I think about kissing you. I hope that when I do, it won't make everything more difficult. Problem is -- I know it will.
I masturbate before every big basketball game for good luck (it really does seem to work). I'm not a member of the team though. Just a girl.
I'm tired of overthinking everything. I'm going to let my heart take control of romance.
There's no time for doubt, confusion, or analysis. I want to fall in love, and when I do, I want to FEEL it.