Monday, March 24, 2008

I'm turned on by male basketball players but I'm not really that into basketball. Very unusual considering I'm a guy.
Do you remember the time you pulled me into an embrace when I was least expecting it? Could you feel how hard I was trying not to tremble? Did you notice how I blushed? You probably don't remember at all... but I will never forget.
You asked me how much blame I placed on you for my breakdown. I couldn't bring myself to say it then but looking back I should have told you that I would have been much happier had things stayed the way they were ...
I'm terrified of my best friend getting into grad school here because if he does, I'll have to go through another year of being in love with him. I'm terrified that if he doesn't get in, I'll be completely alone here.
He's the third person I've wished academic failure on as a quick and easy way to get them out of my life without having to blame myself.
I think you are a complete asshole for treating me the way you did and then acting like you had no idea. Don't sleep with someone more than once and then say, "I'm not sure." It isn't fair to me. You made me feel like a fool.
I told you I only wanted to be your friend, but you grew on me...My responsive smiles turned into grins of admiration. My laughs evolved into nervous flirtations.... But my pride is too big to ever let you know and I believe I missed my window with you.

Now I just have to find a way to keep my feelings secret, because everyone sees it but you.
They tell me that I should put myself on a pedestal and generally put myself first. In the end, I always feel that everyone is above me, should be placed before me, and should think nothing of me.
keep trying to prove to me that you're not worth the time, effort, and emotion i've invested in you. it's gonna work some day.
My premed roomie is always insinuating that my arts-related major is bullshit. I wish I had the guts to tell her that she'd better work in a lab, because her concept of human relations sucks. (But I sort of agree with her.)

Dude, I'm like so in love with this girl, but like, I don't even know if she also likes me.

Yep, I'm definitely a teenager. Definitely.

sometimes I walk down 5 flights of stairs in hopes that I may run into you...but if I do, I have nothing to say. I'm going to keep doing it anyway.
I didn't think you could be in love with two people, but I was. I was greedy and tried to have both in my world. Now I have lost one of my best friends and am in a relationship with someone I love but who doesn't trust me.
I don't put myself into romantic or intimate situations with boys because in the past, I haven't been mature enough to do anything more than giggle. Now I'm 20, and I'm kind of afraid I'll never move past that.

Comment here to submit a secret 3/24/2008

I have fallen in love with people through their words before, having never seen their faces sometimes. Ingenious conversational skills make my knees weak and captivates my mind.
You cheat at Scrabbulous (I've seen you while we watch tv).
It makes me sad that it is dishonest on both sides, but I can't stand to lose, even if I know you didn't do it on your own.
You might have ruined this game for me; I love you.