Friday, April 25, 2008

I hate how being in love is becoming not good enough. I want to fall in love again.



And I think your letter made me do just that. With the person I'm already in love with.

Thank you for giving me a new perspective.
You told me you were clinically depressed, and that I was the only person you trust. That was your secret; here's mine.

When you called to tell me this, I thought you were crying because you had found out I'm cheating on you again.

I keep hurting you deliberately. I'm so sorry. I love you. I don't know why I do it either.
I'm with someone new, but I still can't stop myself from acting like a total fool around you.


The counselor who molested me at summer camp requested to be facebook friends with me.
I confronted him 2 years after it happened and he laughed and said not to mention it.
I'm not just joking.

Sometimes, I do legitimately hate you.
I can't fucking take it anymore. Stop fucking canceling on me, find your fucking cell phone, charge the damn thing, and get a fucking day planner.

It's not that FUCKING hard.
When I told you you were the best and the biggest I've had, I was lying.
That guy you despise was bigger.
I've had random hookups that were better.
i thought i was going to get my first bi experience in college, but apparently not
It had been so long since I'd found a girl that excited me. Dating became boring real quick, I was interested in anyone I met, but kept looking because I knew I could be happy, in love, again. Now all I have to do is slow myself down, so that we become infatuated with each other. I found the ultimate gem!
He makes my HEART sing
im afraid to be vulnerable
Sometimes, when you look at me, I can tell that I'm still (and probably always will be) "the mistake."
I want to ask my girlfriend to marry me. But I'm afraid to tell her that I'm the heir to a multi-million dollar company.I don't want to tell her because I don't want the money to change things. But I don't think I can ask her to marry me without telling her.

Happy honeymoon. Did I mention I'm loaded?
Last week, the police interviewed the man that molested me going on a decade ago now. Apparently, he felt betrayed.
you are supposed to be my roommate and my best friend. all i can think about everyday is how i can't wait to move out and leave you forever. i think about it all the time, how much better next year is going to be. it can't come soon enough.
It was me that had my guy friend send you $25 of Bski's that "you" ordered. Get excited, there's more things to come.

You shouldn't have been so mean to me.
dear boy
I don't know you...but I seem to run into you everywhere, not just in our class together. What are you thinking about when we lock eyes in class? It is like a staring contest that I never win. People always tell me that I blush to easily. It saddens me that I will never know, but what is even more sad is that I never worked up the courage to ask your name.

--philosophically challenged
i just graduated and didnt have the best experience...it was tough and still is...i didn't know who i was (still don't), i hung out with the wrong people- bad influences...i got fucked up all the time, didnt join any service groups, now i work a job that i'm not sure i like, and i'm still fucking up
I don't hang out with you because I think your best friend is gorgeous (though he is). I hang out with you because you a cool and amazing person and I'm going to miss you once you graduate.
I don't think that they realize how much it hurts me just to know that they're talking about me behind my back.

It's not that I care for their opinion specifically...just that they never even tried to understand. And because of that, I'm not going to try to understand on their end either.

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