Sunday, May 4, 2008

i cheated on you. three times. you still dont know. i am scared i probably will do it again... so thats why i broke up with you.
i know i just broke your heart... i am sorry. but i am afraid of the future... somehow i know that i will do you wrong in the end. so i had to end it now. sorry baby
i'm ready to get the fuck out of chapel hill. i don't care how many people love it, it is a BUBBLE! and franklin street is OLD!
i somehow let my last semester of college completely slip through my fingers. what do i do now?
I like my new guy so much, more than I ever thought I would!! But I really like a couple of his friends too...
I feel so close to all of you who read and respond to these secrets. I wish I knew you personally. I have no doubt that you are all amazing. Thank you.
I wasn't sure how I felt about you until you told me how you felt about her. Now I know exactly how I feel but I'm stuck in the friend zone forever.
I'm trying to set up a threesome with the two girls that I'm studying with. they are both really hot
I want to be excited about the future, but I just don't want to let go of the present. I think I'd much rather just keep the present.
i don't care that you cheated. i don't care that you hate me. i'd do anything to be with you again. you made me feel like me, and i haven't had that since.
I get sexually aroused by drastic makeovers.
At this point, I'm almost willing to give up my summer internship to stay here and be with you.
I have a boyfriend who treats me like a princess, but lately all I can think about is one of my best friends and if it would ever work out between us.

The reason I left your house so quickly that night was because I was afraid I was going to kiss you
Every time I eat at Lenoir I get diarrhea. This happens no where else.
i want to take your virginity, just not too fast. and it's not because i'm concerned for you, i'm concerned for me.
I said no. He didn't let that stop him.
I found the picture of us in my drawer as I was cleaning out my desk to move out, and I completely broke down. My roommate walked in and I busied myself with taking apart my storage cubes, but he knows. Everyone knows how broken my life is without you.
I wish, for once, you would choose us over your boyfriend. We try to brush it off, but it actually really hurts and angers us. And we don't want the gift of your time. We want time that you actually, truly, want to spend with us.

I just hope it works out. Because if it doesn't, you might actually realize the good friendships that you have lost.
I tell everybody I'm over you. I know you'll never see me in that way. I probably won't ever see you again. But every week I go look up your Facebook pictures and melt for a few minutes. You're just that hot.
i miss you so much it hurts. literally. i think about you all the time and think about the times we had together. but what hurts more than anything is that i know you never think about me.
My parents made me feel so guilty about choosing UNC that I can't even tell them that I have depression, I'm failing my classes, I lost all my friends, and I hate it here.
Everyone else says they have zero motivation because it's the end of senior year and yet they still get shit done. I'm embarrassed because for me, zero motivation really means that, and I'm really afraid I'm going to fail this last class I need to graduate.

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