Monday, March 31, 2008

I told Silent Sam I'd talk to him senior year. Now I'll never get the chance.
I'm terrified that I recognize myself in another secret.
I am so scared you will get sick of seeing me and leave me next year. Please don't. I love you.
I don't understand why you don't call me back. That kind of chemistry is rare.

Maybe I misread you.

I think that's what scares me more.
Someone told me that they admired my certainty of myself. I have no certainty...no clue of who I am, what I stand for. Funny how even those closest to me can't tell. I wish someone would.
I thought I was getting better after our relationship ended. But I'm still not. And now it's affecting my relationship with him, too. I'm so sorry.
Even after everything that's happened, I still look up at your window every time I pass and wish I was on the other side again.
I am in love with my best friend whom I've known for 13 years. I think he's in love with me too but both of us are too scared to admit it.
I don't know why i've wasted so much of my life "caring" about guys. if i'm honest with myself, they don't even interest me.
my secret is that i'm oh so very close to just saying fuck it all and giving up. so close.
I wish we could still be friends. I miss the person you were, but not the one you have become. If you ever decide to change back, give me a call because I deleted all your numbers.
I lie to everybody. Friends, professors, random people I run into, you name it. If I know you, I've lied to you about something at some point. I hate lying but I never get caught so I keep doing it.
I am a guy and when I watch porn I don't know if I am being turned on by the girl or the guy

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