i'm sick of your lies, i'm sick of your bullshit and i'm sick of your drama. we were best friends at one point but after years of this, i'm done with it. you won't be able to tell because i'll keep in touch but...i've finally given up on you.

i started smoking weed last year in an attempt to stop getting mad at everyone else who treated it as the most important thing in the world. i figured if i did it, then i couldnt get mad at them for doing it. im not against smoking, i just hate that it has become so much of my friends passion/necessity. plus they act so different when they're high. i just figured if i was high too i would stop noticing. i didn't.

i call you and block my number all the time, just to hear your voice. i know it has been over 2 years since anything happened between us, but there is something about you. i so wish we could try it again.

Me and my friend yelled "hey baby" and "you could get it" to girls Thursday and Friday. If you smiled and/or waved back it was us. We hope we made your day better. Your sexy and you deserve it.

I haven't applied myself this year at all. I've slacked, and I've settled. My good is never good enough. I'm only a freshman, but I'm afraid I'll continue this downward spiral, this seemingly apathetic attidue, throughout my entire college career. I'm upset with my B's; they could've been A's if I would have put in the effort. I feel like I'm letting my parents down, and I'm letting myself down. I feel like such a liar when my parent's ask me if I've tried my hardest. I always say "Of course I did" but in reality, I could've tried way harder. Sometimes I despise myself for not working as hard as I could, and I don't really know what else to say or do.

I want a Jim so badly. I want to be someone's Pam. Where in the world are the Jims? Am I crazy and unrealistic for wanting that?

I just found out that you let another girl try to jack you off last night when you were drunk. I've been with you two years. When I asked if you still wanted to be with me, you said "yes." But when I asked if I should be with you, you said you "guessed not," and you were going to let me dump you then and there, without another word.

I wanted you to fight for me.
I wanted you to be faithful.

But you didn't do either. I'm still with you anyway --- right now I just don't know why. I think I'm just too scared I won't find anyone else.

Last weekend he fingered me and I gave him a blow job while my one of my roommates was asleep in the room. Later, when my other roommates came home, we lied and said all we did was make out and they believed us. I felt really bad about it and told myself I'd never hook up again while one of them was in the room.

I don't like my sorority.

the reason i've been getting snappy lately is her. i'll always get jealous when you tell me you're hanging out with her... i know it's irrational because we are so happy together but i can't get over it. i'm sorry... you deserve my complete trust.

When I am here in Chapel Hill I love it. But I always think about when I can go home next and how much I miss home. It a few days I am moving home for 3 months. I think about it and cry. I just want to stay here! What is wrong with me?

I sometimes wish that we could both get so drunk together that I could work up the courage to ask you if there is any chance of us being together...but I am afraid of the answer.

I'm starting to doubt that two people can actually stay happily married to one another for the rest of their lives. I always believed that I would fall in love, get married, have babies, and live happily ever after. Unfortunately, I'm not sure "happily ever after" exists. I'm scared that I'll end up alone, but even more scared I'll end up in an unhappy relationship.

I know I need to finish these assignments for the class I need to graduate but I just cannot concentrate on them. They're already late and I'm already setting myself up for having to take another class after I walk next Sunday.

my parents got divorced and my mom moved to a different house. i have told people who are my friends in Chapel Hill but know nothing of my life at home. I haven't told one person who I know from home, not even my best friends. It's like i can't do it. I was always "that girl" with the perfect life. Nothing is the same anymore.

I often wonder who, if anyone, would be at my funeral.

I cried in my car in a public parking lot secretly hoping you would walk by and see.

I miss you.

I can't call because you're supposed to be the one to call me first and apologize. I want to forgive you, and all I want is for you to say "I"m sorry." It's been four days. I'm so scared this is going to be over.

I know it's stupid and childish.
I know it's probably the dumbest and most juvenile thing you've ever heard and could never understand. Believe me, sometimes I do too. Maybe that's why I have so much trouble telling you this to your face. But I can't help it. I get jealous that you write on her facebook wall wishing her a good day and throwing in an inside joke. I hate it that you put a picture of you and him as your profile picture. I don't need you to advertise our friendship. But I would like some affirmation every now and then. But, it's more than that. It hurts my feelings that you put so much effort and feeling into your friendships with other people and not me; your "best friend". Maybe i'll say goodbye this time and mean it.

I'm so stressed about exams. But now I can't even concentrate on being stressed about exams.

Today, my dad told me that my mom has breast cancer. All I can think about is all the horrible things that could be ahead. I'm so scared. And the worst part is, I can't talk to her about it. She doesn't want me to know, so my dad says I have to keep it a secret. How can I keep it a secret when I just want to call her right now and tell her that I love her, but if I do that for no reason, she'll know that I know.

I wish he had just waited a few days to tell me so I could concentrate on school things and enjoy my birthday. I don't blame him, I know it's worrying him too, so I'm sure he just needed someone to talk to.

i hope that guy who walked right by me while i struggled to carry my things down the stairs breaks his leg. why don't people offer to help anymore?

The guy I'm with gives me the BEST SEX OF MY LIFE!!! Seriously I want to tell everyone and make them all jealous.

The parking attendant at Cobb deck totally hit on me today, and I flirted back even though he was like 15 years older than me. :)

I got a D in two of my classes this semester. I've never seen a D staring back at me before. Grad schools will never look at me now with this on my transcript. I think I'm going to be sick.

I don't know what to do.

I'm about to graduate a virgin. That is what I wanted; however, I can't help but feel like society judges me for it.

"Taking a break" in a relationship has got to be the dumbest idea I've ever heard of. I've known for years that it never works out.

So why did we do it?

I had 30mins to do some sort of studying before my last final. Instead, I masturbated to hentai anime porn. At least I won't be crazy horny during my exam now though.

sorry i have loud lesbian sex with my girlfriend on such a quiet hall.

i just can't help myself.

i would have kissed you last night if i didn't leave. i even had a dream about the way the night would have gone if i had stayed.

i still want to kiss you this morning.

i still have a boyfriend this morning, too.

i know we are just friends, but i can't help but imagine how amazing it would be to make love with you

i know how close you would hold me...

The summer is coming and I know im going to cheat on you. I don't feel bad though, cause you will probably cheat on me 2. Please just dont let me find out.

i hate how black people talk

I masturbated while watching Grey's Anatomy last night.


I can't wait to tell you!!

I feel like rooming together has ruined our friendship. I apologize for anything I may have to done to contribute to that but when are you going to apologize to me?

i had a near perfect gpa until my senior year. now i've screwed it up and i'm afraid to apply to grad school because i'm afraid i'll never get in.

I'm not sure why I did it...maybe it was because I was trying to see if there ever could be something there again...fuck.

We're living together, we've been together for three years, and I don't know if I'll ever think we're right for each other. And I'll never say it.

I checked my grades. I failed my open note exam.
And while I was taking it, I knew my answers weren't correct, but I didn't know what else to do.

It's funny how you're one of my best friends and we've talked about our love life problems over the past couple years. Funny because I'm just now realizing that you're the one I really want.

I hate drinking. Seriously, I don't like alcohol. I hate the way it tastes and smells. But sometimes, I wish I could get just a little tipsy and relax and not be so damn cautious all the time.

I used to hate that you watched porn...now I find myself getting into it too....

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