Wednesday, May 21, 2008

I don't hate your girlfriend. I just hate the fact that she's living the life that I was supposed to have with you. Have a great romantic-getaway at the beach this weekend. I secretly hope that you get in a wreck and that she doesn't live through it. but then karma would probably not be on my side.
I hope I have sex with so many girls this summer, or at least one, so that you won't still be my last after all these months.
i skip samson every time now.
My ex and I learned together that he likes to spank his partners/I like to get spanked. But now, I would have no idea how I would ever ask someone new to do those things to me, even though I want it so much.
I know I said I wouldn't take sides, but really? He's right. You're being a bitch.
When we both agreed it wouldn't mean anything, I desperately wanted it to mean everything to you.
I finally realized you were the one for me and everything was perfect… only a few months later you passed away unexpectedly… now I am alone to pick up the pieces… and I am afraid I won’t ever be able to move on because I will always compare others to you
I want to be a whore, and sleep with as many guys and girls as possible.

I'm just a sexual guy...
Every time we're on the phone and I tell you that I'm reading this site, it's because I've posted a secret that I don't have the nerve to say to you, and I keep hoping you'll check it out and wonder if that one is from me.

Care more.
I'm not anti-social... I'm just sick of you!
i wish i could even remotely relate to any of the posts about broken hearts and love. i want to be broken hearted!! they really are right about better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all :(
i's the basic "girl is in love with her really good guy friend scenario." i've known him since highschool, and he liked me freshman year, but it just didn't work out. we've been friends ever since. and it's not even about looks for me, he just has one of the most amazing personalities ever. and he is so driven that he inspires me to do things i never in a million years EVER thought i could do. but there's a problem: i'm pretty sure he doesn't see me the same way. and i hate it.
I don't know if I can make it through the summer without kissing a guy who liked my friend before school was over.
I'd never commit suicide, but sometimes I wonder if it'd be worth it just to make my family like me again.
Life is so complicated. And I have no answers - not one. No matter how earnestly I try to sort the world around me. No matter how much I try to make sense of the past nor how much I try to understand myself, or what's "right." Not only virtue of character, but virtue of thought.

It's so overwhelming. What I would give for the certainty and conviction of youth mixed with the experience and wisdom of age.
Does "just good friends" mean I'm way too ugly for him? Honestly? Because, that's what I say when I don't find them attractive...
Working 40 hour weeks this summer at my internship has made me kind of depressed about what the rest of my life's going to be like after I graduate.

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