I can feel myself turning into a different person. I'm not sure if I like that person or not. I'm just worried that I'm making my friends angry. But at the same time... I figure that if they really care, they'll accept me. If not, I'm better without them. I hope.

I think I'm slipping into depression...again.

I miss you more than you can imagine... and way more than I should.

I am currently being diagnosed, for alas, something has suddenly gone wrong with my brain. I liked who I was before all this started, and I'm readjusting. But I am ruining many a relationship along the way. Innocents are getting wrapped up in my shit, and I'm sorry. I am sorry.

My boyfriend loves me and I think I can't love him back now. I'm going to have to lose him because of all this. And he's the best person I've been with so far. We have been best friends for a year. I miss that. I am going to crush him. I'm sorry for that too.

i find you fascinating, but shouldn't even think about you. i'm practically engaged. when i'm not with you, i think about you. when i am with you, i think about how it would be to touch you...i'm so torn.

It'd be so cool if a girl asked me out for once.

I have a year and 2 months left to tell my best girl friend that I'm in love with her. Wish me luck.

I've never been this scared in my life. Everything just happened at once and I'm on the edge of a nervous breakdown. Nobody is making me feel better either....they say things aren't that bad but I don't believe them. I'm smoking weed to just calm down.....I hope it doesn't become habitual.

every time I like a guy, he meets my room mate and likes her more. I end up being the middle man to try to get them together...