Monday, May 5, 2008

I'm the "other girl." And the bad thing is I really don't feel sorry for his girlfriend. I'm leaving in a few weeks and she gets to keep him.

It's just not fair.
I thought that things would be different in college, but another year has gone by and I am still in the friend zone. I'm 19 and have never been in a relationship.
I have been hopelessly crushing on my friend all year. He is a good religious kid and I party way too hard... I wish I could change my ways and be good enough for him. He would probably never think of me like that anyway.
I had only one real life partner. I had two affairs. But the closest kinds of "dating" relationships I've had were/are with people online who I meet on gaming sites and the like. I don't think I want it any other way, because I am too insecure with myself and too shy to have a physical partner; but the person I am dating now, across the net that is, I want nothing more than to be in his arms.
I got a B in Organic Chem and it feels as good as an A...I'm so happy right now!!!
My boyfriend has very different political views than I do. Now I'm starting to believe them, myself. I'm not sure if I believe them because I really do believe them, or if it's only because HE believes them. I don't want to change who I am just because of him... but I really do believe that he's right. And that's a little scary.
why did i ask the question if i didn't want to hear the answer?
I think taking adderall in order just to study is a form of cheating.

Though part of me really wants to try it. People seem to get so much better grades when they take it and study.

I proud that I've never used it, but I do still wonder quite frequently.
I don't like black people
I can't wait to leave so I don't have to see you every day and be reminded that nothing is the same, and now I have to like you in secret.
I'm really worried that I won't have this site to turn to every day this summer. I hope people keep posting their secrets. It's so hard waiting till Sunday for PostSecret.
You're sleeping on the couch right behind me and I'd like nothing more than to go cuddle with you. Too bad you had to go and get a new girlfriend.
i'm starting to doubt that i'll ever be more than "just a friend" to anyone.
Its weird, there is nothing that I am more afraid of than falling in love. But at the same time there is nothing that I want more in this world because I am starting to forget how good it feels.
I wish someone wanted me. It'd be nice for someone to care and want to figure me out.
I like picking zits.
Why is it when everyone else says they have zero motivation, they still get things done? When I have zero motivation, I stare at empty Word documents and fail classes.
I'm only with you to make my ex jealous, because he's unhappy with his current g/f, in the hopes that he'll realize what a good thing he lost and we'll get back together. Sorry.

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