I am so tired of looking in your eyes and seeing what I can't have.

Why don't you see me for who I am?

I'm tired of it, completely and inexorably tired of it...

I let my eating disorder take over my life. Now I'm trying to recover and I've never been so scared because you aren't around to save me.

I am certain that I have severe depression. I have points where I can't sleep then I oversleep. Nothing interests me anymore. I'm suicidal sometimes. I avoid going out. Everything seems hopeless. I'm failing my classes.

I don't get medication for two major reasons. I don't have any insurance and I think the side effects will make the situation just as bad.

It disgusts me when I know you're with him. It disgusts other people too.

ever since i was raped, i felt like a whole chunk of me was missing.

i finally feel whole again, and its because you love so much the way i am.

you have made me into a better person.

you will never know how much that means to me.

Don't get me wrong I love UNC but every time I go to visit friends at a less prestigious school (UNCG, ECU, UNCC) in North Carolina I always feel more at home and accepted there than I have ever felt here...

none of my boyfriends have ever made me orgasm.
but they all think they did...

I really genuinely like going down on guys, but other people seem to think that if I like giving oral sex, I'm slutty.

It still hurts.

I'm going to kiss you before the weekend is over.

Please kiss me back.

I've subtly wished death on my roommate in the hopes that it would get me a 4.0 for this semester and also that it would rid me of her existence so I wouldn't have to feel so guilty about my slacking off when I see her working.

If I had just bought a vibrator a few years earlier, I could have stopped several bad decisions I made in college.

I've fallen for you, and you'll never know.

All those times we touched and you thought nothing about it, well, it gave me a glimmer of hope.

Iloveyou. The way you look. The way you touch. The way you hug me.

Life is not fair, I want you. I want to be with you.

I know you aren't gay, and that is what makes things so complicated.

bad timing. this defines my life.

It won't be for another year but..
I'm afraid of graduating.
I'm afraid of growing up.
I'm afraid of leaving college and going into the real world.
I just wish I could stay here until I was ready to leave, I don't know when that would be but....

I wish someone wanted to date me.

I'm still afraid of the dark.

I am probably the only one on campus that cannot control my right foot. It just jumps around sporadically. I was just born this way.
If you see someone tripping over their own feet on campus, its me.

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