Comment here to submit a secret 5/13/08

what was that casual goodbye? i thought we were better friends than that, and it's not like we'll be seeing each other again anytime soon

Last year, I had everything one needs to be truly happy - then I took on an internship over the summer, ended up by myself with no friends or companions (not for lack of trying), and spent every day in isolation.

It showed me that the mental strength I thought I had was a farce, and the resulting depression from acute loneliness fundamentally changed me as a person.

Then this year happened, and I lost it all - love, friendship, and everything that I thought defined me as a good person.

And so I sit on my bed, at home this summer. But life is cruel - though I'm now at the place I would've given my all to be last summer, I'm lonelier and more in need of a hug and a reassurance from a friend than I ever have been.

And I have no one here.

I feel like my roommate always hates me. I wish I could fix it.

I only ever really liked maybe one of your friends that wasn't my friend first. All of your friends are either REALLY weird, completely self-centered and/or fucking psychotic. I want to go up to every one of your shitty friends and tell them how shitty they are. That would feel fantastic.