From the time I get home to the time I got to sleep, the only thing I can think of is drinking. All I want to do is drink. Sometimes I do, and when I don't, I wish that I were drinking.

I saw my ex tonight, and while I may seem fine with seeing him, on the inside I was SCREAMING. I had to bite the inside of my cheek to keep from crying. Does he really not know how much it kills me that he has moved on?

I wish for once the stars would align and I'd for once be satisfied with my romantic situation.

I wish was able to forget my past and just start today as though it were day 1.

I'm finally starting to feel whole again, like I'm not angry and jaded and unreasonable in my world view like I was right after I found out you'd been cheating on me all that time. But I still have the same cynical opinions about the world as you inspired in me then. I guess I'm just getting used to being unable to trust.

Whenever I meet a cute boy, I have to look up our Zodiac love compatibility.

I'm not sure I actually believe the stuff, but it hasn't been wrong yet.

Yes, i was hitting on you. Yes I do know you're gay, and yes I am too. I'm just too scared to say it, so give me a reason not to be, please.

I cannot go one day without a cigarette. Well, I can, but if I don't have one I get really grouchy. I try not to admit this to anyone.

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