you keep promising we'll hang out and it never happens. I only have a few weeks left here, why do I keep believing you??

I honestly think I'm fat.

I've wished so many times that I had the self-discipline to be anorexic. How do they do it??

I told myself I wasn't going to let my happiness depend on a guy anymore. But I get sad if a day goes by and I don't get to talk to you.

when my roomate isnt here i am naked all the time in our apt...it's just so liberating

I think I like the you I talk to on AIM better than the in-person you. It's always such a let-down when we hang out.

I think that I am more afraid to be vulnerable than I am of being alone--but just barely.

you keep surprising me with the new levels you sink to.

Once, I slept with three guys in the same month. No one would ever believe that I would do something like this. For the first time in my life, I have a secret that I can't admit to ANYONE and it makes me feel alone.

i've been sure of my major and career plans since high school, but today i decided i wanted to change. but now its too late.

I really do love both of you. It sucks.

I love our late night conversations, and how you make me laugh, and everything else that you're so good at that he stopped doing years ago.

...But the next day, I always end up having sex with him.

i let my weight dictate my happiness.

I think we're meant to be together. I think you know it too. Why can't we just admit it?

Your dad sent me a picture of you today. I hadn't seen an updated picture of you in over 6 months. Even though we broke up almost 2 years ago I still remembered the exact curve of your lips and the way your eyes crinkle up in the corners, and how your hair falls into your eyes.

I'm in love with him. I wouldn't be with him if I weren't. But why did I suddenly miss you so badly when I saw that picture?

i just cut myself for the first time in 2 years...i thought i'd finished with that.

Comment here to submit a secret 5/15/08