Thursday, March 5, 2009

My girlfriend has loved me since before we started dating. She's the sweetest, nicest, most intelligent, amazing person I've ever met, and I feel like the luckiest guy on campus because I'm with her.

Since being with her, I've felt extremely content and validated, but have not acquired the joy I've felt in other relationships. I want nothing more than to feel that joy and longing for her in this relationship, but it hasn't come yet. Maybe my last one broke me. I've never broken anyone's heart before, but I feel like it's inevitable, and like people here and elsewhere would want to smack me for entertaining the thought of throwing away someone so special.

Maybe I did deserve to have my heart broken.
I only met her once. I only spoke with her for about 5 minutes. She then gave a presentation about Carolina -- "excellence with a heart." And I still miss Eve.
Eve Carson day depresses me. If I died, there would be no campus-wide mourning ceremony, no Daily Tar Heel spread, no speeches by the chancellor. Nobody would give a shit.
I need you to stop being so on again/off again with him. I want to prove to you that when you're with the right person, relationships are great!
I really believe that if the media didn't bitch about the economy so much, the economy would be better.
Media, movies, and tv dont only make me feel fat; they make me feel like a social failure. Since childhood they have ingrained in me the image of what I should be or have: taller, thinner, more outgoing, happier, fitter, bigger boobs, smaller ass, tighter jeans, cuter shoes, tinier swimsuits, lots of dates or a sweet and attractive boyfriend, dreams of a high-powered career, three kids, and a loving husband. This is a single round hole, I'm a square peg, and, therefore, I've felt bad about myself for going on 12 years now...
I think I might be the only woman on this campus who doesn't want a boyfriend.

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