All my friends are worried about the direction my life is going. I live from pay check to pay check, I'm failing all of my classes, and I have no plans for my future. They want me to be like them... I'm not... I'm happy... Unlike you! I lay in the grass and stare at the clouds, run in the rain and jump in puddles, walk down the beach and watch the sunset. I'm enjoying my life and we both know you can't say the same. My success is measured in happiness, not in dollar bills. Who should be worried about who?

I just read one of your old letters to me. I don't know why I did, it just confuses and saddens me more.

I hate that i focus so much on a stupid boy.

by stupid i dont mean he is stupid, he is actually smart and handsome and funny and pretty much perfect. i just hate that i have made him the center of my world. im not even mad that im not the center of his. i just hate that i do this all the time!

This is the time of the year that the DTH runs articles about how great Carolina is and how one should have fun with friends. They only make me bitter and anxious to get out of here as soon as I can. Not everyone's Carolina experience is good, y'kno.

I feel so guilty everyday for cheating on you. I cant come to tell you for fear of losing you and the possible social consequences. Even worse is that I feel this way even thought I believe you have cheated on me before.

I've invested so much more in this relationship mentally than any other relationship I've been in - and I'm starting to lose interest and get bored...But I'm holding on so tight, not only because I don't want to hurt him like I've hurt so many people in the past, but also because this time I don't have anyone else to run to.

I hate knowing that I'm a heart breaker. I'm afraid that I'll never be able to be happy in a lasting relationship. But I'm not happy without a relationship either...I wish I knew how to break the pattern.

i came to college to grow up.
i learned how to lie better, then got reckless.
i learned how to cheat more, then fucked up.
i am late all the time, a big old 'fuck you' to the people around me.
i am not financially responsible.
i am not hardworking.
i pursue my own immediate satisfaction over what's good for me every single time.
i'm not stupid, but i'm so fucking foolish.
what's going to happen to me?

i think duke boys are hotter than UNC boys.

I started that post on juicycampus! I can't believe you didn't even guess it could have been me!

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