Wednesday, June 4, 2008

My parents treat my sister and I differently. It's very clear my dad likes her better. I'm sure they love us the same, but for some reason he ignores me when she's around. It really hurts my feelings.
Im drunk right now and the one thing im completely sure of is that i love my friends and that the fun i have with tthem is work all this trouble, and all the time apart. so what if i never find any soul mate, these people are my ones to live for.
For what it's worth, I know I'm not the most perfect, best-looking man on the planet Earth. And not even at UNC. But I feel like I deserve something, anything. I just need to crash into someone, connect for just a moment. I'm sick of being alone.
I have been a very responsible, moral person my whole life. I used to believe that someday I would be thankful for it and see the benefit. But, now I'm starting to wonder. Is it worth it? Am I missing out more than I am gaining?

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Tuesday, June 3, 2008

I'm not asking to be everybody's everything...

I just want to be somebody's something...

I'm tired of being alone...

Where are you?
It's been a year and a half since we broke up. I'm just now starting to believe you probably aren't the one for me.
I only keep up our friendship now because I feel guilty for breaking up with you.
I'm terrified of achieving the goal I've been working towards my whole life just to realize that it's not what I want.
sometimes i wish my friends weren't so interesting

they make me feel boring and unaccomplished.
i cannot concentrate on anything. i am so horny ... all i think about is sex. and i'm a girl.

i wish i had a fuck buddy. no strings attached.

yours truly,
sexually frustrated
I've been talking to this new guy. He's awesome, dates are fun and everything and he's really really good for me. I like him a lot.

The only problem is the sex is REALLY bad. help!
It felt good to fuck him for fuck sake. To relentlessly punish him for hurting me the way he did. Too bad he liked it so much.
I know my ex's passwords. I hate that so much - I don't want to. But I do. And I logged into her facebook earlier today to see what she had been up to - to know how she was living her life without me.

I'm so ashamed. It's been 6 months.
see me as more than a friend. please.
This summer, we're supposed to take a break from each other. But we still talk, and for some reason, you've been penetrating my dreams, too. It's not a longing to be back with you...but it's really missing you as a friend. And it kills me that our boundaries will never let me have you like that.
im going to student health tomorrow. im getting help. im not backing down or chickening out.


im not telling anyone, i need to prove to myself im strong enough to do this on my own.
the rumblings of my empty tummy

both pick me up

and destroy me
Oh my God.

What am I doing?

I'm a sophomore in college. The world is boundless!

And I'm done thinking the world is small because I put it inside of you.
If it wasn't for Facebook reminders, I would never remember any of my friends' birthdays.