I've never done any real community service, or taken advantage of all the chances to help at UNC. That makes me feel horrible, and I am going to change it.

Just when things were getting good, you had to get all passive-aggressive on me. It really hurt. I'm hoping, for both of our sakes, I don't see or talk to you for a while. If we do, I hope you feel bitter. I don't want to feel that way, but the way you reacted towards me, I really can't help it.

I know I will probably have to speak to you again at some point, but here's the truth: I don't want to, and I'm going to avoid it where I can. At this point, I don't even know what I would say to you. I guess it's a pretty good thing that you don't want to talk to me, either.

Comment Here to Submit a Secret 3/23/09

I've been talking to the most amazing guy, but a cruel twist of fate has probably ended any chance of a relationship. Sometimes it feels like Romeo and Juliet. Only we're not 14 and we're still alive.

I want a soulmate.

You asked me once if you'd ever hurt me. I laughed and told you no. I said I'd hurt myself and it wasn't your fault. It was the second time I've ever lied to you. Yes, you hurt me. We never had the type of relationship I wanted; we never kissed, never dated, never did anything beyond friendship. It wasn't like you cheated on me, but it hurt to see you throw yourself at every single guy you met except me. I'm glad I was never one of your meaningless hook-ups, we probably wouldn't be such great friends now if I had been, but I haven't been able to stop wondering what's wrong with me. You picked scumbags over me, and, yeah, that hurt.

My best friend doesn't believe I'm close to a mental breakdown because it doesn't seem that way to her. The truth is, she's the only person keeping it from happening.

I'm sorry, but I'm not sorry. I didn't really want to be friends with you anymore anyway. It wasn't worth it.
p.s. you could have hit me if you wanted. I can take it... and I could take you

I'm not moving on or letting go, but simply accepting the fact that you can't and never will want to be more than friends. I hope to god its going to work this time, because I know I can't fall for you again and have my heart shattered one more time.

I thought I was doing so much better over spring break and thinking about you less and less.

It turns out it was just being in a different place. Everything about Chapel Hill reminds me of you. I miss being with you.

I don't fit in with my group of friends anymore. It seems like they only have mean things to say to me.

Comment Here to Submit a Secret 3/16/09

NYC was supposed to be our spring break trip - you took it with her instead.

tonight I lost all faith in gay men... all of them.. I tried so hard to give you everything, give you a chance to show me that you of all people were not like the rest of them... I defended you in front of all of them, and you still let me down... I never want to date again because of you

I read FML way too much - numerous times a day - and I get disappointed when they haven't updated it. It makes me feel so much better about my life!

Comment Here to Submit a Secret 3/12/09

I'm not voting for Anoop.

I'm tired of random hookups and pretending that I can keep my emotions out of it. I just want to meet a nice guy who wants a serious relationship. Where are you?

You are the kind of guy that I have waited for most of my life to fall in love with. You are kind, sweet, caring, and you love to see me smile. Now if only you could get past flaking out on 75% of our plans (that you mostly initiate), I think we would have the time of our lives, in a relationship or not.