When I first started dating my boyfriend, he told me that it would take a long time for him to get to a place where he could have sex with me.

It's been almost six months, I'm very much in love with him, and I'm so glad that we haven't had sex yet. SO GLAD.

I'm waiting until my wedding night until I have sex but sometimes it's really really difficult. I've thought about masturbation but I'm pretty sure that being a Christian means that that's not an option either. I really really do want to do the Godly thing, but it's really getting difficult.

I haven't been depressed like this for two years. I don't know if I'm strong enough to get out again.

Sometimes you're so lethargic around me and other friends of ours that are girls, then you perk up immediately when the guys come around. It's annoying and obvious.

I just looked at pictures of us together from last year and fall semester....REALLY looked at them. And I could see the life and love in your eyes and mine. I realized I hadn't felt an inkling of that or seen you like that in such a long time.

I cried a little over you for the first time in many months. Fuck.

1. you know I love you.
2. you know that I miss you and that I want to see you.
3. you're only home for three more days.
4. our paths won't cross again until August, if then.
5. call me, stupid.

thanks for inviting me, ass holes.

UNC's girls worry too much about being rail thin. I dont know about any of you, but I love a well done muffin top!

now that i think about it, i really did hate my roomate.

i lied to my parents about making deans list again.

Comment here to submit a secret 5/30/08

I worry that when I tell people now that I'm anorexic (I was nearly hospitalized when I was in middle school), they see my more-than-generous current body and don't believe me. I also worry that when I try to be encouraging to people who are struggling with the disease by sharing my success story, they look at me as their worst nightmare.

I just had sex in the back seat of my car. I feel dirty but OH SO fantastic!

why are there so many people with unrequited love on this site? and why aren't they about me?

I think I'm developing an eating disorder. The last several months have been really tough for me emotionally, and I can't eat when I'm upset. Now, I feel like I can't eat anyway, even though things are getting better in my personal life. I feel like if I know I should be eating more, I should be able just to eat more. The solution seems simple....so why can't I just make myself eat?

even though you did it in the most cowardly way, thank you for realizing what i should have realized. i just wish it wasn't awkward now.

I give up. I'm going to take the easy way out and just be a hardened jerk.

I give up. I'm going to take the easy way out and just be a hardened jerk.

Ever since I moved out of my place in Chapel Hill, I've lost all motivation to do anything. I'm starting this "great new chapter of my life" but all I want to do is stay in bed. I have a great new job and life ahead of me, so why am I so depressed?

Comment here to submit a secret 5/29/08