Tuesday, January 13, 2009

We couldn't be more incompatible, so why do I still try?

Sunday, January 11, 2009

Return my goddamn phonecalls, asshole. It's getting annoying.
I feel so alone. I'm getting sick of my good friends, and I don't know of who else to talk to.
I know how I feel about you and how you feel about me. Yet all of a sudden, I'm pulling away again. It's probably because I've realized that we're not going to be together for a long time, and I don't want to deal with that. But I still love you, and probably always will.
I moved in with my friend at the beginning of this month, and I can already tell it's going to destroy our friendship.

She shuts herself in the room all day, doesn't speak to me for hours, and has completely monopolized the internet and cable, leaving me to post this using someone else's internet. Additionally, she seems to think it's MY job to report any maintenance issues to the office, even though her inconsiderateness has caused me to avoid the place when I can.

It's going to be a LOOOOOONG 8 months.
I wish you wouldn't keep ten feet away from me as if I had leprosy. It doesn't hurt that you don't feel about me the way that I feel about you. I'm an adult. I can handle rejection. What hurts is that you seem to be terrified of me, now that the truth is out.

I'm not here to cause you pain. You face enough stress as it is. But please don't insult me by acting as if I'm a crazy nympho who'll jump you without warning. I thought you knew me better than that.

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Saturday, January 10, 2009

We broke up before break. I will not enjoy seeing you around next semester, but I'll pretend everything is fine.

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Friday, January 9, 2009

It makes me feel like I'm in middle school again but I'm jealous of my roommates' friendship. I hate being left out and I don't understand why they don't like me anymore.

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Thursday, January 8, 2009

So you want to know the real reason I never wear my hair down?

It has nothing to do with the fact that I'm lazy or anything like that.

It has to do with the fact that I have trichotillomania. Which means that I pull my hair out and have since developed a bald spot.

Now you know. Well kind of.
I think I changed over break. I'm coming back better, faster, stronger, and smarter. I hope my friends notice.
I've had to come to terms with the fact that I'm just not physically attractive. I've gotten uglier since high school.

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Im pretty much only your friend because I feel bad for you.
My roommate's relationship with her boyfriend has made me understand why women remain in emotionally and physically abusive relationships. How does she still live in denial?

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

I've developed an aversion to anything cream-based because I'm obsessed with not gaining weight.
I'm really happy that I've found a new group of friends because my other ones were stifling me.