Tuesday, January 27, 2009

The number of people that I can stand being around is quickly diminishing. I'm getting worried that I'll have no one to talk to in a few months.
A part of me wants to know how we can admit that we're in love with each other, yet we need to go back to "friend" mode because we just can't do the long-distance thing.

The other part of me knows exactly why and knows that it's the right decision. We can still talk, but it's not the same, and I know you feel just as horribly about the situation.
I am scared that no one will ever love me. All my friends have been getting engaged and I still haven't found anyone yet. Am I a bad friend for being depressed/slightly jealous when I go to my friend's bridal showers and when I see pictures of the happy couple? I feel horrible but it makes me wonder when my turn will come.
I fantasize about a friend in one of my classes. I don't know if there's tension between us or I have lost it completely.
I don't think the election for SBP matters. It is a popularity contest.

Monday, January 26, 2009

You are a great friend, but I am perceptive enough to know that you like me as more than friends. I can't admit that I know, because then we'd discuss it, and I would tell you that I'm just not interested. And, we would probably drift apart from the strain.

It's easier for me to just play dumb and dodge the subject, because I like the close friendship we have now, and I don't want it to change.
you are amazing and beautiful....i wish you could see it and let me in.

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Sunday, January 25, 2009

i would give you THE WORLD if i could....and if you would let me.
most friends in the group i hang out with tell me their big secrets. i would never break their trust in a million years, but sometimes i think about the chaos i could cause.
None of my friends seems to need me in the way that I need them. It makes me feel like shit.
I'm trying so hard to make this situation better but neither of you care about me at all. If you did you would know that I've needed you more this year than ever before and you failed me as friends. I have to move on now. I'm sorry you won't be part of my life. I truly am sorry.

Saturday, January 24, 2009

I know you broke up with me because it will never work out, but I still love you. A lot.

And yes, I'm sure there are prettier and smarter girls out there but I doubt there are any who will have the same spark with me that you have.
I can't stand my roommates right now. Everyone is either boyfriend or self-obsessed.

When you all are done being crazy pessimistic, bitches, you can come find me holed up far, far away from you all.
One of my friends is about to get really hurt, and it all depends on whether I tell one of them what the other told me.
I lied to you, but only because I know that you cannot deal with the truth. However, the more you inflate yourself and blame everything on me, the more I want to tell you what a complete ass you are.

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Thursday, January 22, 2009

I don't know when I became such a hypochondriac, but it has completely consumed my life, not to mention driven away my friends, and even my family. I don't want to be paranoid all the time - I just can't help it.

Everything is falling apart. I feel so defeated.

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