i hate that i love you so much. and im really scared for our future. you have yours all planned out, and i have no clue what im doing. i think this means that someday you will move on and leave me behind. that hurts me a lot.

you're in front of me right now and i dont feel like looking you in the eyes becuase i think i might cry. why couldnt we have met like 5+ years from now!?!