Last week, the police interviewed the man that molested me going on a decade ago now. Apparently, he felt betrayed.

you are supposed to be my roommate and my best friend. all i can think about everyday is how i can't wait to move out and leave you forever. i think about it all the time, how much better next year is going to be. it can't come soon enough.

It was me that had my guy friend send you $25 of Bski's that "you" ordered. Get excited, there's more things to come.

You shouldn't have been so mean to me.

dear boy
I don't know you...but I seem to run into you everywhere, not just in our class together. What are you thinking about when we lock eyes in class? It is like a staring contest that I never win. People always tell me that I blush to easily. It saddens me that I will never know, but what is even more sad is that I never worked up the courage to ask your name.

--philosophically challenged

i just graduated and didnt have the best experience...it was tough and still is...i didn't know who i was (still don't), i hung out with the wrong people- bad influences...i got fucked up all the time, didnt join any service groups, now i work a job that i'm not sure i like, and i'm still fucking up

I don't hang out with you because I think your best friend is gorgeous (though he is). I hang out with you because you a cool and amazing person and I'm going to miss you once you graduate.

I don't think that they realize how much it hurts me just to know that they're talking about me behind my back.

It's not that I care for their opinion specifically...just that they never even tried to understand. And because of that, I'm not going to try to understand on their end either.

Comment here to submit a secret 4/25/08

All my friends are worried about the direction my life is going. I live from pay check to pay check, I'm failing all of my classes, and I have no plans for my future. They want me to be like them... I'm not... I'm happy... Unlike you! I lay in the grass and stare at the clouds, run in the rain and jump in puddles, walk down the beach and watch the sunset. I'm enjoying my life and we both know you can't say the same. My success is measured in happiness, not in dollar bills. Who should be worried about who?

I just read one of your old letters to me. I don't know why I did, it just confuses and saddens me more.

I hate that i focus so much on a stupid boy.

by stupid i dont mean he is stupid, he is actually smart and handsome and funny and pretty much perfect. i just hate that i have made him the center of my world. im not even mad that im not the center of his. i just hate that i do this all the time!

This is the time of the year that the DTH runs articles about how great Carolina is and how one should have fun with friends. They only make me bitter and anxious to get out of here as soon as I can. Not everyone's Carolina experience is good, y'kno.

I feel so guilty everyday for cheating on you. I cant come to tell you for fear of losing you and the possible social consequences. Even worse is that I feel this way even thought I believe you have cheated on me before.

I've invested so much more in this relationship mentally than any other relationship I've been in - and I'm starting to lose interest and get bored...But I'm holding on so tight, not only because I don't want to hurt him like I've hurt so many people in the past, but also because this time I don't have anyone else to run to.

I hate knowing that I'm a heart breaker. I'm afraid that I'll never be able to be happy in a lasting relationship. But I'm not happy without a relationship either...I wish I knew how to break the pattern.

i came to college to grow up.
i learned how to lie better, then got reckless.
i learned how to cheat more, then fucked up.
i am late all the time, a big old 'fuck you' to the people around me.
i am not financially responsible.
i am not hardworking.
i pursue my own immediate satisfaction over what's good for me every single time.
i'm not stupid, but i'm so fucking foolish.
what's going to happen to me?

i think duke boys are hotter than UNC boys.

I started that post on juicycampus! I can't believe you didn't even guess it could have been me!

Comment here to submit a secret 4/24/08

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i'm scared i'm failing my classes, but i haven't been to them enough to know.