I'm happy for you, I truly am. I'm glad you're finding out who you are; I'm glad you've found someone.

But it's difficult for me. For almost two years now, I've wanted to be the girl for you. And now you've found him instead.

I don't know whether you're deceiving me again or not. I'm scared to get close to you again because if you were to do what you did before, it would absolutely crush me. I know that if you hadn't lied so many times before, I wouldn't be worried about this at all, but now I seriously have questions about your morality and it's hurting my ability to let you be my friend. The only way I know of protecting myself from you is to shut myself off from you emotionally.

Please, please, please don't hurt me again.

I mock all the girls who get engaged/married while they're still in college, but really I envy them. I'm tired of falling for all the wrong guys and looking for mr. right. I just want to find him already!!

the idea of dating you makes me giddy inside. I don't know if you'll ever see me this way though.

I wish I could go back to the first day of high school and change everything. I'd make sure we had gone to the same college. I always think about what we could have been like if we'd shared that experience together.

I make a point of telling people that I'm a top-tier student at a good university just because I know that, in conversation, I come across as an idiot.

i know you read this.

you're a bad friend. i'm starting to think you're also a bad person. i wish i could tell you that.

i'm worried i'll never be enough to be a guy's "everything"


i'm worried because i;m not even good enough for myself.

He played one too many games with me. Yesterday I told him I've had enough. And I actually meant it. And it was because of you. I keep trying to bring it up in conversation, but it never works, so I will just say it here. Thank you for making me strong.

I'm over you!

I'm friends with a girl who is perfect for me. she's beautiful, nice, funny, and smart. but unfortunately she has a boyfriend, and it's not me, but it could have been had I not missed my chance. I really suck at initiating those things and that is part of the reason I am leaving after the summer and not returning.

Please propose while we're at the beach...

I know you have the ring. You know I'll say yes.

Please, please, please!

You really suck at relationships.

At least, you suck at them with me.

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you're not alone. i know.

(really and truly, i do.)

Please propose while we're at the beach...

I know you have the ring. You know I'll say yes.

Please, please, please!

You really suck at relationships.

At least, you suck at them with me.

How strange it is that I have no wish to die; you could even call it a thirst for life; yet I have my suicide - from the note, to the books to my left and to my right, and the manner all planned out.

i really REALLY like him

BUT


i'm just so worried i'll mess it up. i'm willing to admit to myself that i'm afraid of being hurt, of even lettin anyone close enough to have the chance. why why why

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