I fell head over heels for this guy in high school. He was older and more experienced, and he used me. I wanted to make him happy, so I didn't think that he was using me. It took me a while to figure it out.
There's a good chance that I'll see him this summer. It's been a long time since I've seen him, and I really want to see if I can move past it and actually try to be friends with him, but I'm scared of what might happen.
im really scared about having a handicapped child one day , either mentally or physically. i want so badly to have a perfect kid. i dont think i could handle it if it wasn't!
I wish they made an 'I'm sorry I screwed your boyfriend' card. Even though you broke up, I'm still messing around with him, and I just can't find a way to tell you. So here goes:
When I came to Carolina 2 years ago I cut almost all my ties to friends and acquaintances from high school. I never regret that decision until I'm home for the summer and have no one...
"it took a year and a half, but i think I'm finally over him! But i'm afraid that all the feelings i've worked hard to get rid of will come back when i see him this summer...
Posted by E at 10:28 PM 1 comments"
And now I'm falling head over heels again. Why is it so hard for me to stay away from him??? I'm frustrated but also shamefully happy
I'm beginning to think that my best friend and best guy friend have had something going on that I don't know about. It feels like I got a door slammed in my face.
I tell you that I hate you for hurting me because you didn't want to try again this summer. And I do hate you for it. But I don't know if I want you back because I actually still love you, or just because I want a boyfriend again, or even just because I wasn't the one that dumped you. I hate that I want a boyfriend so badly and I hate that I'll never find anyone I'll feel as comfortable with as I did with you. But no, I really don't want you back because you were the worst boyfriend in the world, you never did a thing for me except made me think that love could still be love, even when it was so one-sided
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I fell head over heels for this guy in high school. He was older and more experienced, and he used me. I wanted to make him happy, so I didn't think that he was using me. It took me a while to figure it out.
There's a good chance that I'll see him this summer. It's been a long time since I've seen him, and I really want to see if I can move past it and actually try to be friends with him, but I'm scared of what might happen.
thinking about the fact that you were happy with her, even though she ended up making you miserable, makes me wonder why you can't be happy with me.
i'm mad at myself for not giving you more of a chance. of course now that you are moving far away i want you more than ever.
I'm absolutely in love with the campus squirrels. I find them fascinating.
im really scared about having a handicapped child one day , either mentally or physically. i want so badly to have a perfect kid. i dont think i could handle it if it wasn't!
i say that i trust you, but i don't really mean it.
i just don't want to be THAT person that demands you not do the things you want.
but, i think the only reason i don't trust you is that i can't trust myself.
I wish they made an 'I'm sorry I screwed your boyfriend' card. Even though you broke up, I'm still messing around with him, and I just can't find a way to tell you. So here goes:
You're my best friend. I'm so sorry.
I'm dying to make out with my best guy friend. Not because I'm attracted to him, but because all my other girl friends have...is he really that good??
When I came to Carolina 2 years ago I cut almost all my ties to friends and acquaintances from high school. I never regret that decision until I'm home for the summer and have no one...
I posted this secret in april...
"it took a year and a half, but i think I'm finally over him! But i'm afraid that all the feelings i've worked hard to get rid of will come back when i see him this summer...
Posted by E at 10:28 PM 1 comments"
And now I'm falling head over heels again. Why is it so hard for me to stay away from him??? I'm frustrated but also shamefully happy
i am still miserably in love with you.
and i know i shouldn't have told you, but it still killed me that you didn't say "i love you too".
You make it impossible for me to hate you. Even when you say something absolutely idiotic, I love you more.
I can't stand that you're not with me.
I'm beginning to think that my best friend and best guy friend have had something going on that I don't know about. It feels like I got a door slammed in my face.
I tell you that I hate you for hurting me because you didn't want to try again this summer. And I do hate you for it. But I don't know if I want you back because I actually still love you, or just because I want a boyfriend again, or even just because I wasn't the one that dumped you.
I hate that I want a boyfriend so badly and I hate that I'll never find anyone I'll feel as comfortable with as I did with you. But no, I really don't want you back because you were the worst boyfriend in the world, you never did a thing for me except made me think that love could still be love, even when it was so one-sided
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