please let me get this job. i really need it. i don't know if it's right to pray for something so selfish, especially after being a stranger to God for so long, but I am.

That's the first time I've ever felt like it was the other person's privilege to be with me. Like how I imagine beautiful people feel when they have sex with someone they know i uglier than them. But it's not because I'm more attractive. It's because I'm so much more beautiful than him on the inside.

I'm going to tell her. I think she'd want to know. And I have a right to; she hurt me before she hurt you, and just because you'd rather keep it all quiet doesn't mean I have to.

You're fantastic but I hate your girlfriend. She's immature, you admitted it yourself, and she doesn't deserve you. Therefore, I'm going to try to be a boyfriend-stealer. I know this makes me a bad person, but I kinda don't care.

i had the most amazing day yesterday. the most awesome things happened that i didn't even think were possible.

and at the end of the day even though i felt lucky about my life and that everything was so surreal...i felt unhappy and all of the negative things about myself even stronger than usual. why can't i just be happy?

Bad things happen when you drink too much...and I may have just ruined my rep with everyone I work with. To cover it up I'm lying about what happened and what I remember.

Great way to start the summer...

Both my brother and my sister are in relationships. I'm the oldest and I'm single. How is this fair!?!? I know its stupid but I want to be the first to get married, and I'm really beginning to think its no longer a possibility.

I used to laugh at those women on Maury for not knowing who fathered their child, but now I realize just how easy it could be and it really scares me.


Please God, don't let me be pregnant.

I don't miss my roommates.

I get really pissed off when people tell me that all I need is more confidence in myself and THEN I'll find the right guy.

I am confident. I truly believe I am a beautiful, smart woman. But sometimes I wonder if my confidence is what pushes guys away...

I bumped into you today, and it will probably be the last time we ever see each other.
After all we've been through and meant to each other over the past 7 years, you couldn't even get up out of your chair to hug me goodbye?


It makes me wonder if I ever really meant anything to you at all. And that really hurts because even though I've moved on, a part of me will always love you.

Comment Here To Submit A Secret 6/10/08

i wish i had a chance with you. I wish you could see me as more than a friend, at least consider it.

I was just sitting and having a conversation with a friend that I hadn't seen in a while. I think that you are such a bitch for telling him what I did last year with the guy you are now dating.

Everyone sees you as this perfect, caring person, when you acted without knowing anything about the situation, and least of all, me. Oh, and not to mention, you weren't even dating at the time. I have spent the past year trying as hard as I can to forget what happened, because I know I can't forgive myself for it.

I hope your relationship ends soon, and I hope it's because he does what he did with me with someone else.

it kills me that i didn't mean enough to you for you to even miss me.

we are in love.
but i refuse to be with you unless you can fucking make time for me.

You couldn't get it up today and I'm really hoping that doesn't mean that you didn't want me. Or that I did something wrong.

It is so awkward to talk about it, I don't know what to do.

Its been a month since I have graduated and I feel like all of my "friends" have forgotten about me. No calls, no messages, no emails. I feel used. I guess because we aren't all on campus anymore and don't see each other on a regular basis, you have no need for me anymore. I guess I wasn't fortunate enough to have true friends who keep in touch no matter where we all are!

See, what I got from that conversation was that you think my friends are holding me back, I'm a spoiled little rich girl, and I'm a naive child that knows nothing about heartbreak.

Thanks for that, asshole.

You really know how to make a girl feel all warm and fuzzy inside.

I don't understand it.

You love me, and I love you.

Why can't we just be together?

i understand that you're busy and tired, but i really miss talking to you. you make me feel like myself.

Sometimes, I have all of these ideas and dreams and goals, and I feel completely confident that I can and will do all of them.

Other times, like right now, I wonder how real that actually is and realize I can't really see myself doing that stuff at all. I think that if something really bad were to happen to me, it would save me a lot of grief because people would remember me the way I am now, and before I end up failing everyone.

i hope you fail

i just want you to know your girlfriend flirts with my best friend every time you aren't around

i hate my best friend

i like watching gay sex

I'm going to start smoking because I feel the need to do something self-destructive that doesn't leave a scar.

I will never forget how you found me attractive when I felt so ugly. Thank you.

If I get another crappy score on another LSAT, I'm going to hang myself.

I would give anything to talk to you and hear your voice again- knowing that’s impossible kills me every day

I'm glad you're moving to Charlotte, it's such a great opportunity. You hate your job, and the new one will give you better pay, benefits (which you currently lack), better hours, more respect, more freedom, a better office, you'll be closer to your family...it's just so perfect for you. But when I found out that you want to break up when you move because you "can't do long distance", it made me wish I hadn't pushed so hard for you to find a better job. Is it terrible that I can't decide between you having a job that makes you miserable, but I get to be with you, or you having the perfect job, and I have to let you go.

I've ended all of my past relationships because I lost feelings for the other person.

I'm crazy about you, but you have become so apathetic. I don't think that anything is going to change. I don't know what to do. If you want to end things, I wish you'd be man enough to tell me.

Comment Here to submit a secret 6/9/08

when i woke up this morning, i had 2 tampons in. i'm not really sure how that happened...

I hear my old stalker just moved back to town. It's cool though, because he doesn't know how to find me. I almost wish he did, though, so I would have a reason to send my big angry brother to beat him up.

I beat myself up everyday for missing my chance. It's happened more times then I care to count now.

Comment Here to submit a secret 6/8/08

I think you might have Asperger's, but if you seem more normal than I feel, what does that say about me?

I'm not fat or anything, but I love eating. Many times I will try to steal my roommates food without them knowing, just because I am hungry. Sometimes, I even do it when they are looking just so we will talk about food.

i'm bad at making friends.

i keep my distance.

i come across as cold but i'm really just shy and think too much before i speak.

blah.

because my friends know i read this page all the time i'm worried they think some of the secrets here are about them, even though I've never posted before this. it's scary how many of these secrets are my own.

I'm having the time of my life this summer. I can't stop thinking about how much more fun it would be if you were here with me!

I came out as a bisexual during my sophomore year when I was working with a UNC theater production. When the actors did not believe I was bisexual, I went back into the closet. The only other person I have ever confessed my bisexuality to (offline) was my mother and she still has not believed me to this day.

I wake up every morning and wonder why I hurt so bad, even though I have the power to help others so well. I was called just the other the day kindest person someone knew, but I have no one to come to with my own problems, except this site. Holding the weight of the world on your shoulders, your back is bound to tire out I suppose...

I try to "fill up" my schedule so that I don't see you a lot. I do it to make you miss me, so that the next time I see you, you tell me how much you missed me and shower me with kisses. I really want this relationship to work, but I'm also tired of putting so much more effort into it than you do.

I feel like all my friends are having adventures abroad or doing cool, fun internships, and I'm stuck at home in a horrific minimum wage job. It makes me afraid for my future.

Comment Here To Submit A Secret 6/7/08

So even though my friends are certain that you like me (you behave like you do when we're alone) and when you talk to me you always bring up amazing plans to do fun things when school starts back up, I still wonder how a confident 'bad ass' like you could handle and maintain a relationship. I have some hope though, you match my wit and throw it back at me and when I act cocky or 'hostile' you just laugh and tease me back into my normal sweet behavior. Also you love my country accent and I love being able to be my old country girl self around you.

Choosing a major that I liked freshman year seemed like a wonderful idea at the time but as I enter my senior year I wonder if I'm actually going to be able to find a job after graduation

I have really high career goals. I think that I could be great at what I do.

I'm afraid to admit to the people I work with that I'd be willing to give all of it up to have a family with you.

now that you no longer trust me and confide in me with all your secrets, it seems like a quarter of these are from you. and it breaks my heart, i never tried to abandon you, but you felt that way, and so im scared you will never allow us to be like we were - the closest that partners could ever be, sharing everything, and holding each through every tough time.

I can't believe you actually wrote that on juicycampus.

I love you, grandma.

Comment Here To Submit A Secret 6/6/08

I was afraid of vampires when I was a little kid. Even now, I still can't fall asleep unless my neck is entirely covered by my blanket.

you're really good at acting like you don't care about stuff like that but IM SO GLAD that you admitted that you cared today. we are far apart and i really needed that. thank you!

If I don't get over my inability to masturbate in my parents' house soon, I am going to LOSE MY FREAKING MIND.

I've considered committing suicide, but now that I've seen how much it hurt my family when someone we cared about did it, I get sick just thinking about doing something like that. The people who do it, or want to do it, clearly haven't been close to someone who has.

Songs are great. They allow me to sing my secret...and yet still keep it a secret.

"My friends say-
They’re proud of me-
For taking our break up-
So casually-
But they don’t see-
What lies beneath my smile-

It appears-
That I’m okay-
That I moved on-
When you walked away-
But the truth is-
Since you said goodbye-

I’m invisibly shaken-
And quietly breakin’-
Desperately takin’ one breath at a time-
Beneath this composure-
I know it’s over-
Baby I’m dying cause you can’t be mine-
But I will never show the toll it’s taken-
Cause I’m invisibly shaken-"

I like you. You have a girlfriend. And that sucks.

I know you're missing him and not me. But I miss you more than ever these days.

Could you imagine a year ago we'd be here? I couldn't.

i used to think you would stop loving me if you knew all my secrets. but really it's just brought us closer together. i don't need to be mystery girl anymore.

For the first time I'm in a relationship and have no inkling of a feeling to wonder what it would be like with someone else. No other crushes, I don't even look at the others on the street and fantasize about them. I can only think about YOU. I love the feeling, but at the same time it scares me - could you really be the one I've been waiting for? We have a long and hard road ahead of us...I guess we'll see.

I'm afraid Obama won't live up to the hype if he's elected president, but I know that isn't a popular opinion w/ our generation, so I usually keep my mouth shut in political conversations.

I don't have feelings for you anymore. It took me awhile, but the inevitable finally hit me: we'll never be as close as we were, and I'll always think less of you for how you treated me. In the end, I AM glad we're still pretty good friends.

I hate that you gave your new girlfriend a pet name.

My parents treat my sister and I differently. It's very clear my dad likes her better. I'm sure they love us the same, but for some reason he ignores me when she's around. It really hurts my feelings.

Im drunk right now and the one thing im completely sure of is that i love my friends and that the fun i have with tthem is work all this trouble, and all the time apart. so what if i never find any soul mate, these people are my ones to live for.

For what it's worth, I know I'm not the most perfect, best-looking man on the planet Earth. And not even at UNC. But I feel like I deserve something, anything. I just need to crash into someone, connect for just a moment. I'm sick of being alone.

I have been a very responsible, moral person my whole life. I used to believe that someday I would be thankful for it and see the benefit. But, now I'm starting to wonder. Is it worth it? Am I missing out more than I am gaining?

Comment Here To Submit A Secret 6/4/08

I'm not asking to be everybody's everything...

I just want to be somebody's something...

I'm tired of being alone...

Where are you?

It's been a year and a half since we broke up. I'm just now starting to believe you probably aren't the one for me.

I only keep up our friendship now because I feel guilty for breaking up with you.

I'm terrified of achieving the goal I've been working towards my whole life just to realize that it's not what I want.

sometimes i wish my friends weren't so interesting

they make me feel boring and unaccomplished.

i cannot concentrate on anything. i am so horny ... all i think about is sex. and i'm a girl.

i wish i had a fuck buddy. no strings attached.

yours truly,
sexually frustrated

I've been talking to this new guy. He's awesome, dates are fun and everything and he's really really good for me. I like him a lot.

The only problem is the sex is REALLY bad. help!

It felt good to fuck him for fuck sake. To relentlessly punish him for hurting me the way he did. Too bad he liked it so much.

I know my ex's passwords. I hate that so much - I don't want to. But I do. And I logged into her facebook earlier today to see what she had been up to - to know how she was living her life without me.

I'm so ashamed. It's been 6 months.

see me as more than a friend. please.

This summer, we're supposed to take a break from each other. But we still talk, and for some reason, you've been penetrating my dreams, too. It's not a longing to be back with you...but it's really missing you as a friend. And it kills me that our boundaries will never let me have you like that.

im going to student health tomorrow. im getting help. im not backing down or chickening out.


im not telling anyone, i need to prove to myself im strong enough to do this on my own.

the rumblings of my empty tummy

both pick me up

and destroy me

Oh my God.

What am I doing?

I'm a sophomore in college. The world is boundless!

And I'm done thinking the world is small because I put it inside of you.

If it wasn't for Facebook reminders, I would never remember any of my friends' birthdays.

I'm happy for you, I truly am. I'm glad you're finding out who you are; I'm glad you've found someone.

But it's difficult for me. For almost two years now, I've wanted to be the girl for you. And now you've found him instead.

I don't know whether you're deceiving me again or not. I'm scared to get close to you again because if you were to do what you did before, it would absolutely crush me. I know that if you hadn't lied so many times before, I wouldn't be worried about this at all, but now I seriously have questions about your morality and it's hurting my ability to let you be my friend. The only way I know of protecting myself from you is to shut myself off from you emotionally.

Please, please, please don't hurt me again.

I mock all the girls who get engaged/married while they're still in college, but really I envy them. I'm tired of falling for all the wrong guys and looking for mr. right. I just want to find him already!!

the idea of dating you makes me giddy inside. I don't know if you'll ever see me this way though.

I wish I could go back to the first day of high school and change everything. I'd make sure we had gone to the same college. I always think about what we could have been like if we'd shared that experience together.

I make a point of telling people that I'm a top-tier student at a good university just because I know that, in conversation, I come across as an idiot.

i know you read this.

you're a bad friend. i'm starting to think you're also a bad person. i wish i could tell you that.

i'm worried i'll never be enough to be a guy's "everything"


i'm worried because i;m not even good enough for myself.

He played one too many games with me. Yesterday I told him I've had enough. And I actually meant it. And it was because of you. I keep trying to bring it up in conversation, but it never works, so I will just say it here. Thank you for making me strong.

I'm over you!

I'm friends with a girl who is perfect for me. she's beautiful, nice, funny, and smart. but unfortunately she has a boyfriend, and it's not me, but it could have been had I not missed my chance. I really suck at initiating those things and that is part of the reason I am leaving after the summer and not returning.

Please propose while we're at the beach...

I know you have the ring. You know I'll say yes.

Please, please, please!

You really suck at relationships.

At least, you suck at them with me.

Comment Here To Submit A Secret 6/3/08

you're not alone. i know.

(really and truly, i do.)