My closest friends are graduating. I can't even fathom what my life will be like without them. I'm terrified of what is going to happen after the 11th of May.

How come I have "so many friends" yet I feel so left out of everyone's plans?

You think I got mad just because you were being a drunken idiot. I got mad because I finally told you I loved you and you said "Thanks." Even though you don't remember it I wish I had never said it.

I think I'm a better environmentalist than all of you. And I'm not even a hippy, an activist, a vegetarian, or any of the numerous other things you pretend to be to seem cool and eco-friendly

I don't know why, but I keep on believing you. I'm an idiot.

The sooner I graduate, the better.

I wish I had more friends who live close to me. It's always depressing going home 'cause most of my friends live out of state.

I also wish I hadn't alienated all the kids from my High School, maybe then I'd have friends at home.

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I was afraid once that when you graduated you and I might stop being friends. It never occurred to me that we might stop being friends before that.

I still don't understand why you pushed me away, or what you see as so much better than me in the one person you do trust.

I always act really chipper when pepole ask me my summer plans, but here I'm dreading it- I have a feeling this summer is going to be terrible, and I'm hoping August will get quickly so I can start fresh. I miss Carolina so much already and I haven't even left yet.

smoking disgusts me ... except when you do it, i find it really sexy

i think my laziness has reached a whole new level.

instead of walking to the window to check out the weather, i went to weather.com


my friends always nag on me and poke fun of how lazy i am, but i dont think anyone even realizes the extent to which it goes. i'm worried about how, in a couple of years, this could really hurt me in trying to find a job and everything.

I see you and I can't help but love it. But in the morning, just like every other morning, you still have a boyfriend. Is it bad that I'm kind of hoping Summer ruins your relationship? Yea, it's selfish I know.

I have never fallen in love
I have never committed myself to one person
Sometimes I make excuses for being with so many guys
Really I just want to prove to myself that people could want me
But I wish it was for more than just one night

sorority girls scare the hell out of me

i want nothing more than to throw this stupid ibm POS off of the tallest building when i graduate...and i'm only a junior.

When you get back to America, I want to be there at night on the tarmac to be the first person you see and kiss you before words are even exchanged.

It would be nice if fireworks and "Bittersweet Symphony" were involved in that moment, but not necessary.

I misspell stuff on purpose quite regularly... I don't know why

I cannot believe that you don't have the gumption to break up with me when you no longer care for me. I cannot be in a relationship with someone who won't even touch me. How about growing a pair and telling me how you really feel instead of making me be the only one in the relationship? I need intimacy...not sex, intimacy...from someone who's idea of romance is more than just the occasional head butt. You have a lot to learn. I didn't tell you this, because I don't have the courage. But you have hurt me excrutiatingly, and when I graduate Saturday, that will be the last time I think of you. You wasted eight months of college that I cannot get back, my senior year no less! Enjoy your last year at UNC without me. And next time, do not settle for someone you do not want just because it is easy. I beg you not to put another girl through this.

Last night I went over to my friend's dorm room and told him flat out that I like him. I totally got shot down, but I feel so empowered now that I have done what countless women only wish they could do.

She's immature, egotistical, pretentious, hypocritical, impatient, impetuous, needy, selfish, neurotic, paranoid, insane, overbearing, irrationally jealous, crass, materialistic, judgmental, hedonistic, reckless, irresponsible, myopic, haughty, unappreciative, lackluster in bed, and being with her has drained me to the point of hating Carolina. Yet, I am still in love with her. What is wrong with me?

I've NEVER wanted anything more than I want this. PLEASE! I don't deserve a lot of things that are just given to me but I do deserve this because I worked hard for it.

I hate that your job takes up so much of your life now.

I've had to give up a dream of mine (albeit a 'dorky' one) because now you're going to work instead of be with me.

I know you want to work, but I hate that it's become a larger part of your life than me.

You were right. That secret was about you. I know because I wrote it... but I don't think it's true anymore. Your window has closed. My apologies. I really was pulling for you...

I have extremely high hopes for this summer, in part because of how shitty things have been this year. If it doesn't turn things around for me then I don't know what I'll do.

Here's to the summer....don't let me down.

my boyfriend and i live far away but we're staying together this summer.

so far i dont miss him at ALL (its been a week). i feel relieved. i miss physical intimacy more than him. should i even be in this relationship?

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I'm the "other girl." And the bad thing is I really don't feel sorry for his girlfriend. I'm leaving in a few weeks and she gets to keep him.

It's just not fair.

I thought that things would be different in college, but another year has gone by and I am still in the friend zone. I'm 19 and have never been in a relationship.

I have been hopelessly crushing on my friend all year. He is a good religious kid and I party way too hard... I wish I could change my ways and be good enough for him. He would probably never think of me like that anyway.

I had only one real life partner. I had two affairs. But the closest kinds of "dating" relationships I've had were/are with people online who I meet on gaming sites and the like. I don't think I want it any other way, because I am too insecure with myself and too shy to have a physical partner; but the person I am dating now, across the net that is, I want nothing more than to be in his arms.

I got a B in Organic Chem and it feels as good as an A...I'm so happy right now!!!

My boyfriend has very different political views than I do. Now I'm starting to believe them, myself. I'm not sure if I believe them because I really do believe them, or if it's only because HE believes them. I don't want to change who I am just because of him... but I really do believe that he's right. And that's a little scary.

why did i ask the question if i didn't want to hear the answer?

I think taking adderall in order just to study is a form of cheating.

Though part of me really wants to try it. People seem to get so much better grades when they take it and study.

I proud that I've never used it, but I do still wonder quite frequently.

I don't like black people

I can't wait to leave so I don't have to see you every day and be reminded that nothing is the same, and now I have to like you in secret.

I'm really worried that I won't have this site to turn to every day this summer. I hope people keep posting their secrets. It's so hard waiting till Sunday for PostSecret.

You're sleeping on the couch right behind me and I'd like nothing more than to go cuddle with you. Too bad you had to go and get a new girlfriend.

i'm starting to doubt that i'll ever be more than "just a friend" to anyone.

Its weird, there is nothing that I am more afraid of than falling in love. But at the same time there is nothing that I want more in this world because I am starting to forget how good it feels.

I wish someone wanted me. It'd be nice for someone to care and want to figure me out.

I like picking zits.

Why is it when everyone else says they have zero motivation, they still get things done? When I have zero motivation, I stare at empty Word documents and fail classes.

I'm only with you to make my ex jealous, because he's unhappy with his current g/f, in the hopes that he'll realize what a good thing he lost and we'll get back together. Sorry.

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i cheated on you. three times. you still dont know. i am scared i probably will do it again... so thats why i broke up with you.

i know i just broke your heart... i am sorry. but i am afraid of the future... somehow i know that i will do you wrong in the end. so i had to end it now. sorry baby

i'm ready to get the fuck out of chapel hill. i don't care how many people love it, it is a BUBBLE! and franklin street is OLD!

i somehow let my last semester of college completely slip through my fingers. what do i do now?

I like my new guy so much, more than I ever thought I would!! But I really like a couple of his friends too...

I feel so close to all of you who read and respond to these secrets. I wish I knew you personally. I have no doubt that you are all amazing. Thank you.

I wasn't sure how I felt about you until you told me how you felt about her. Now I know exactly how I feel but I'm stuck in the friend zone forever.

I'm trying to set up a threesome with the two girls that I'm studying with. they are both really hot

I want to be excited about the future, but I just don't want to let go of the present. I think I'd much rather just keep the present.

i don't care that you cheated. i don't care that you hate me. i'd do anything to be with you again. you made me feel like me, and i haven't had that since.

I get sexually aroused by drastic makeovers.

At this point, I'm almost willing to give up my summer internship to stay here and be with you.

I have a boyfriend who treats me like a princess, but lately all I can think about is one of my best friends and if it would ever work out between us.

The reason I left your house so quickly that night was because I was afraid I was going to kiss you

Every time I eat at Lenoir I get diarrhea. This happens no where else.

i want to take your virginity, just not too fast. and it's not because i'm concerned for you, i'm concerned for me.

I said no. He didn't let that stop him.

I found the picture of us in my drawer as I was cleaning out my desk to move out, and I completely broke down. My roommate walked in and I busied myself with taking apart my storage cubes, but he knows. Everyone knows how broken my life is without you.

I wish, for once, you would choose us over your boyfriend. We try to brush it off, but it actually really hurts and angers us. And we don't want the gift of your time. We want time that you actually, truly, want to spend with us.

I just hope it works out. Because if it doesn't, you might actually realize the good friendships that you have lost.

I tell everybody I'm over you. I know you'll never see me in that way. I probably won't ever see you again. But every week I go look up your Facebook pictures and melt for a few minutes. You're just that hot.

i miss you so much it hurts. literally. i think about you all the time and think about the times we had together. but what hurts more than anything is that i know you never think about me.

My parents made me feel so guilty about choosing UNC that I can't even tell them that I have depression, I'm failing my classes, I lost all my friends, and I hate it here.

Everyone else says they have zero motivation because it's the end of senior year and yet they still get shit done. I'm embarrassed because for me, zero motivation really means that, and I'm really afraid I'm going to fail this last class I need to graduate.

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i'm sick of your lies, i'm sick of your bullshit and i'm sick of your drama. we were best friends at one point but after years of this, i'm done with it. you won't be able to tell because i'll keep in touch but...i've finally given up on you.

i started smoking weed last year in an attempt to stop getting mad at everyone else who treated it as the most important thing in the world. i figured if i did it, then i couldnt get mad at them for doing it. im not against smoking, i just hate that it has become so much of my friends passion/necessity. plus they act so different when they're high. i just figured if i was high too i would stop noticing. i didn't.

i call you and block my number all the time, just to hear your voice. i know it has been over 2 years since anything happened between us, but there is something about you. i so wish we could try it again.

Me and my friend yelled "hey baby" and "you could get it" to girls Thursday and Friday. If you smiled and/or waved back it was us. We hope we made your day better. Your sexy and you deserve it.

I haven't applied myself this year at all. I've slacked, and I've settled. My good is never good enough. I'm only a freshman, but I'm afraid I'll continue this downward spiral, this seemingly apathetic attidue, throughout my entire college career. I'm upset with my B's; they could've been A's if I would have put in the effort. I feel like I'm letting my parents down, and I'm letting myself down. I feel like such a liar when my parent's ask me if I've tried my hardest. I always say "Of course I did" but in reality, I could've tried way harder. Sometimes I despise myself for not working as hard as I could, and I don't really know what else to say or do.

I want a Jim so badly. I want to be someone's Pam. Where in the world are the Jims? Am I crazy and unrealistic for wanting that?

I just found out that you let another girl try to jack you off last night when you were drunk. I've been with you two years. When I asked if you still wanted to be with me, you said "yes." But when I asked if I should be with you, you said you "guessed not," and you were going to let me dump you then and there, without another word.

I wanted you to fight for me.
I wanted you to be faithful.

But you didn't do either. I'm still with you anyway --- right now I just don't know why. I think I'm just too scared I won't find anyone else.

Last weekend he fingered me and I gave him a blow job while my one of my roommates was asleep in the room. Later, when my other roommates came home, we lied and said all we did was make out and they believed us. I felt really bad about it and told myself I'd never hook up again while one of them was in the room.

I don't like my sorority.

the reason i've been getting snappy lately is her. i'll always get jealous when you tell me you're hanging out with her... i know it's irrational because we are so happy together but i can't get over it. i'm sorry... you deserve my complete trust.

When I am here in Chapel Hill I love it. But I always think about when I can go home next and how much I miss home. It a few days I am moving home for 3 months. I think about it and cry. I just want to stay here! What is wrong with me?

I sometimes wish that we could both get so drunk together that I could work up the courage to ask you if there is any chance of us being together...but I am afraid of the answer.

I'm starting to doubt that two people can actually stay happily married to one another for the rest of their lives. I always believed that I would fall in love, get married, have babies, and live happily ever after. Unfortunately, I'm not sure "happily ever after" exists. I'm scared that I'll end up alone, but even more scared I'll end up in an unhappy relationship.

I know I need to finish these assignments for the class I need to graduate but I just cannot concentrate on them. They're already late and I'm already setting myself up for having to take another class after I walk next Sunday.

my parents got divorced and my mom moved to a different house. i have told people who are my friends in Chapel Hill but know nothing of my life at home. I haven't told one person who I know from home, not even my best friends. It's like i can't do it. I was always "that girl" with the perfect life. Nothing is the same anymore.

I often wonder who, if anyone, would be at my funeral.

I cried in my car in a public parking lot secretly hoping you would walk by and see.

I miss you.

I can't call because you're supposed to be the one to call me first and apologize. I want to forgive you, and all I want is for you to say "I"m sorry." It's been four days. I'm so scared this is going to be over.

I know it's stupid and childish.
I know it's probably the dumbest and most juvenile thing you've ever heard and could never understand. Believe me, sometimes I do too. Maybe that's why I have so much trouble telling you this to your face. But I can't help it. I get jealous that you write on her facebook wall wishing her a good day and throwing in an inside joke. I hate it that you put a picture of you and him as your profile picture. I don't need you to advertise our friendship. But I would like some affirmation every now and then. But, it's more than that. It hurts my feelings that you put so much effort and feeling into your friendships with other people and not me; your "best friend". Maybe i'll say goodbye this time and mean it.

I'm so stressed about exams. But now I can't even concentrate on being stressed about exams.

Today, my dad told me that my mom has breast cancer. All I can think about is all the horrible things that could be ahead. I'm so scared. And the worst part is, I can't talk to her about it. She doesn't want me to know, so my dad says I have to keep it a secret. How can I keep it a secret when I just want to call her right now and tell her that I love her, but if I do that for no reason, she'll know that I know.

I wish he had just waited a few days to tell me so I could concentrate on school things and enjoy my birthday. I don't blame him, I know it's worrying him too, so I'm sure he just needed someone to talk to.

i hope that guy who walked right by me while i struggled to carry my things down the stairs breaks his leg. why don't people offer to help anymore?

The guy I'm with gives me the BEST SEX OF MY LIFE!!! Seriously I want to tell everyone and make them all jealous.

The parking attendant at Cobb deck totally hit on me today, and I flirted back even though he was like 15 years older than me. :)

I got a D in two of my classes this semester. I've never seen a D staring back at me before. Grad schools will never look at me now with this on my transcript. I think I'm going to be sick.

I don't know what to do.

I'm about to graduate a virgin. That is what I wanted; however, I can't help but feel like society judges me for it.

"Taking a break" in a relationship has got to be the dumbest idea I've ever heard of. I've known for years that it never works out.

So why did we do it?

I had 30mins to do some sort of studying before my last final. Instead, I masturbated to hentai anime porn. At least I won't be crazy horny during my exam now though.

sorry i have loud lesbian sex with my girlfriend on such a quiet hall.

i just can't help myself.

i would have kissed you last night if i didn't leave. i even had a dream about the way the night would have gone if i had stayed.

i still want to kiss you this morning.

i still have a boyfriend this morning, too.

i know we are just friends, but i can't help but imagine how amazing it would be to make love with you

i know how close you would hold me...

The summer is coming and I know im going to cheat on you. I don't feel bad though, cause you will probably cheat on me 2. Please just dont let me find out.

i hate how black people talk